LoNeLy World(w_w)

A long mystery

2009-03-04T22:08:00.005+08:00

Did you guys think I have disappeared from my blog posts? xD
Well, some might think so, some might not.

Foreword - I have came back, from the depths of hell.
With an ever-burning passion, to love again.
To those who condemned me to hell, I will not despise you.
For the heavens are above, and the hells are below.

For those who are clairvoyant, can you tell the what is the reason behind my earnest believes?
For those who are sentient, can you be the judge for the love i have for her?
For those who are blind, can you feel the radiant innocence which emits from my love?
For those whose land had been used by me, to nurture my love, my eternal gratitude.

The lessons I learn, from an ever changing truth.
Trust is a powerful word, once in wrong hands, you will be exterminated.
Extermination will mean that we cannot love ever again.
Better to learn from mistrust, then to learn from trust.

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Things I have to do ( Not in any order ) -
1) Do a Self-Reflection
2) Learn the violin
3) Flunk a test
4) Perfect the piano
5) Get in touch with the flute
6) Finish Eclipse.
7) Finish teaching my sister the violin so that we can play a duet piece ( canon )
8) Stop being a gay
9) Help out at a community center
10) Perform at my music school
11) Learn C++ programming language
12) Sleep for 24 hours
13) Get into DotA tournament.
14) Play more DotA.
15) Love my girlfriend(Future)

2009-03-02T23:04:00.002+08:00

It's not your fault those hands are freezing,
You had endured Longed Loneliness,
While you pretend to not notice the meaning behind the love i gave you.
You were thinking of your past failures, in love.
Are you afraid to Love ever again?

Aren't you prepared to step out of the Icy cold present,
Venture out with me towards eternal happiness?
If it were me, I will make you heart warm once again.
With everlasting tenderness.

Fate's plaything, Love.
Fate's Mischief has to be dealt with,
if we are to live together forevermore.
As strong as feeling your pain in your emotional cage,
I can feel your inner warmth,
craving to be let loose.

A place that can heal your sadness and sorrow,
may be in my embrace~~

Chapter 16 - A sickness that is incurable by doctors - Love Sickness

2008-11-08T01:08:00.003+08:00

♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥
♥ Love ♥ Love ♥ Love ♥
♥ Hugging in the Rain ♥

♥ My arms are here to protect you ♥
♥ I will make your heart again ♥
♥ Clear your mind ♥

♥ Quote of the Day 1 - Live your life to the fullest, for it's short ♥

♥ Quote of the Day 2 - Love is of the only essence that is our own, make it worthwhile. ♥

♥ Quote of the Day 3 - Agree with my post title? ♥

♥ Message of the Day 1 - If you would spent time thinking/worrying? Why not spend time making something come true? ♥

♥ Message of the Day 2 - The fragrance of your hair still lingers around me in the night, recession is my only hope, avoidance is your only relieve, isn't it? ♥

♥ Message of the Day 3 - Licking your past wounds, wouldn't life be like stagnant water? Unable to move on? Why not look ahead and try for a brighter future? ♥

♥ Message of the Day 4 - Giving a penny for your thoughts is too little, I would give a million pounds for your thoughts ♥

♥ Message of the Day 5 - This setback is nothing but stepping on dog's poo, I will get frustrated, but I can still wash it away. Setbacks are only subjects that conflict against your heart. Fight it ♥

I will write an entry tomorrow as today I am sick and had done nothing except DOTA -.-" Cya guys

p.s. Somewhere above the misty clouds, I will be waiting, for your embrace ♥

♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥

Chapter 9 - 15, A Memorable Trip : Cambodia International CIP

2008-11-04T13:50:00.013+08:00

♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥
♥ Love ♥ Love ♥ Love ♥
♥ Hugging in the Rain ♥

♥ My arms are here to protect you ♥
♥ I will make your heart again ♥
♥ Clear your mind ♥

Current mood -
Enlightened
~~Happy~~
~~Neutral~~
~~Emo~~
~~Sad~~
~~Terrible~~

♥ Quote of the Day - You Serve so as to Learn, You Recieve so as to Teach ♥
♥ Message of the Day - Now I have come to a parting point, so much so that I will cherish my life and the things I have.♥

~ A Trip of Remembrance ~

Xx A Brief Description of Cambodia Trip xX
Attendance : Siddiq, Jin Wei, Huang Suan, Clement, Benjamin, Yi Siang, How Kar, Kar Hoe, Haqim, Xi Jie, Jie Ren, Leslie, Jia Min, Jia Ying, Suzzani, Humara, Irene, Li Ping, Syahirah, Nardirah, Siti

~ Day 1 ~
Group IC - How Kar
Check in hotel
Visit musuems
Visited Silk Worm Farm
~ Day 2 ~
Group IC - Jinwei
Visit Angkor Wat, Ta Phrom(How to spell?) & Banteay Srey Temples
Dinner and reflection
Preparation for CIP
~ Day 3 ~
Group IC - Syahirah
Visited a village
Tour around a village and understand about their way of living
Commence CIP, Building a Library, Teaching simple english and Maths
~ Day 4 ~
Group IC - Benjamin
Whole day CIP
Continue building Library for building group (Boys)
~ Day 5 ~
Group IC - How Kar
First half of day CIP
Wildlife Conservation
Next Shopping and buffet dinner
~ Day 6 ~
Home Sweet Home

- Here begins the prattling -
~ Day 1 ~
- 30th October
- Weather, Pouring Heavily, Caused a flood at Siem Reap Province

3.00am - Reach the Airport (: Met with my 20 friends and 3 teachers and ms Chow the vendor.
20 Friends, 3 teachers : Ms Hafiza, Mdm Chok, Mr Yoong, Ms Chow (:
Waited for late comers to arrive (:
Very Enthusiastic about the upcoming events (:

4.00 - Checked in our luggage while staying in line, we saw a group arriving.
It seems to be smaller than us, but they were going to Siem Reap city too. (:

4.30 - Went inside the terminal and had some free time (:
Bought Spinelli Vanilla Latte and some cookies (:
Took some pictures with Destiny Fate and Legend (:
Kept on thinking whether we will be able to go home or not (:

5.45 - Boarded the airplane (:
Lots of people already getting air sickness!!!
At least I got a pill from clement to cure drowsiness (:
It's quite useful (:

Around 7.00 - There was a turbulence on the plane due to high density clouds ):
Jia Ying got nausea, she starting to hate the trip ):
LOLs, but I was sleeping very soundly (:

7.30 Cambodia Time, From now on, All time mentions are Cambodian (:
Reached Siem Reap International Airport, Was really cold and drizzling. (:
Went through and waited for luggage ): WHICH TOOK SO LONG TO COME!!!

8.30 - Checked in to the Hotel, got my room number 405 with roommate Haqqim
Clement is with Xi Jie, Huang suan with xi siang
CLement not really happy with it so we decided to change mates.
Clement will come into my room by nightfall after the reflection (:

9.00 - Depart from hotel on a bus and went to visit the landmine musuem (:
I forgot how long was the trip (:

10.00 - Bought tickets at 2 USD and went inside to look at the exhibits (:
It was really cruel, all those mines
Casualities will have their body blown off ):
Theres one called "Booby Trapped Ciggaratte"
There was a ball bearing placed at the green part of the ciggarette, when the smoker had almost finished that ciggarette, it blew up in front of his face, his whole head was blown off. If he had place the ciggarette at his side, he would have lived.
So cruel right? for the khmer Rouges. ):
Saw a lot of missles and mines, Claymores too (: but there were all FFE (: Free-From-Explosives

11.30 - Boarded the bus and went for lunch at a local restaurant (:
It was quite ok, though there was a house fly in my drink -.-"
Took photos of my lunch (:

12.30 - Went on to the Handicap International branch at Siem Reap (:
It is a organisation funded by France? ( I forgot )
It is for the people who had a leg or arm blowned off during the war or post-war by land mines and UEO - Unexploded Objects. ):
There was a tour guide who explain the procedures to us, how the make the fake arm and legs and fingers and how they train the victims. (:
I studied a post war hero, Akira, a professional and skilled Soldier who can diffuse mine with his bare hands. He has diffuse over 1-2million mines to this date.
It was estimated that some 5million mines and UEO were still left undetonated.

2.30 - went back on the bus and head towards the Silk Worm FARM!!!
I learned from the guides that Cambodia is the only country that produce this silk "Gold Silk" From their silk worms.

3.00 - Reached the silk worm farm
Walked in and a guide introduced himself and offered to show us around (:
Well, we walked through workshops and workshops of how they make silk as fine as they are. (:
I have got a lot of photos here, but I will leave it to a later date (:

4.00 - Went to the silk worm farm shop (:
Brought 25dollars worth of sourvenirs (:

5.00 - Back to the hotel for a 45mins break before dinner (:
Don't feel like bathing so I watched Cartoon network with clement and haqim (:
While eating pringles (:

5.45 - Back to Bus and went on to the same restaurant as for lunch (:
The Songs Commitee put up a song for us to sing before dinner (:
It was the reknowned "Tick-Tock Song" (:
Dinnered (: only ate a bit as was feeling that I should eat Cup Noodles later (:

7.30 - It was already VERY dark, so we went back to the hotel for our reflection (:
We sat in our own commitee and thought of the question set by the Vendor - What can we contribute to singapore as a singaporean ? (:
Well, I say i will contribute to the economy (: hahas
I forgot what was in for reflection (: Shall update this some other time with photos de (:

10.00 - Went back to hotel room to wash up (: took a bath tub bathe (:
Refreshed I watched TV till 11.00 as to wait for clement to come up to my room -.-"

11.00 - He came up and we were just about to sleep, (:
He said that he won't be able to sleep as this is a new environment.
That's crap, he's the first one that fell asleep
-.-" then I was like talking to him, waste my saliva la -.-"

~ Day 2 ~
- 31st October
- Weather, Sunny Drizzling

6.15 - Woke up from sleep -.-" was so tired la, but cannot help it must wake up de
Bathe Bathe, The water there will keep fluctuate de -.-" sometimes VERY hot, Sometimes VERY cold ):
But got hot can le (:

6.30 - Clement went back to his 205 room and haqim came back, Unpacking things for the trip later
Insect repellent, wet wipes, Camera (:
Well, Styled my hair and washed my face, applied sunblock

6.45 - Went down to ground floor for breakfast, saw that Clement, Huang suan and Leslie were at the breakfast venue le (:
I ate pancakes and drank milk (: hahas

7.15 - Went to the Lobby and sat on the lounge while waiting for the late comers to make the arrival. ):
Anyway, Conversed with teachers and the lady boss, chatted with clement too (:
Huang Suan went back to his room at 7 cause he finished breakfast and want to get some rest? (:

7.30 - Everybody EXCEPT, Kar hoe and his roommate Benjamin were present ):
Apparently they overslept (:
They were blaming each other jokingly, I think it was like this-
Kar Hoe - You see la Benjamin! Why you go off the alarm!
Benjamin - You say noisy then I off la. -.-"
Kar Hoe - Alarm suppose to be noisy so can wake you up rite!
Benjamin - Knnb you don't want wake up now you say me -.-"
Kar Hoe - Fuck you, who ask you continue sleep !
Benjamin - Knn, You sleep then I also continue right
Kar Hoe - Fuck You, Just now you say ....
Interrupted by Benjamin - YAHYAHYAH
Kar Hoe - JUST NOW
Interrupted by Benjamin - LAHLAHLAH
Kar Hoe - JUSTs
Interrupted by Benjamin - BlahBlahBlah
Kar Hoe - Fuck -.-"

* Well, In the end, They tio scold by teacher and was forced to Apologise in the bus (:
They going to Sing a Song for us at night during reflection (:
They started talking about, A TV channel -.-" known as Fashion TV or for short, FTV -.-"
They say what, the girls there very HOT -.-"
Then actually only siddiq know, then after that Xi Jie, Then after that jie ren then EVERYONE KNOW -.-"

7.45 - Went on the bus (:
Travelled to the entrance to the temples and bought the tickets (: 20USD

8.15 - Went on to the entrance and proceeded to the Angkor Wat temple which was abnormal because the main gate is facing the west and every other temple is facing the East. (: Thats special though.
Anyway Angkor Wat means - Palace Monastry according to the tour guide (:
And the Five highest towers represents Five Peaks of Mount Meru
To enter the temple you have to cross a Rainbow Bridge over a moat. (:
It is said that crossing the rainbow bridge is the first step to Paradise (:
Angkor Wat was originally a Hindu temple, After the buddhist came, It was changed into a Buddhist temple. (:
Anyway the Steps at Angkor Wat is really steep and decaying. (:
The Naga Statues were menacing, some had its head eroded off.
Well, we walk through the temple and into the Gallery where the history was written/carved on the walls (:
Well, the was lots of story, which I don't relaly think I should elaborate here (:
Namely they are - Churning of the sea of milk, The Ramajenut Story and lots more. (:
Some of the Buddha's head were gone due to vandalism and fanaticism as they chop off the head and smuggle it out and sell it to other countries.

*Then there was this special room called echo room, where it's said that you have to stand with your back on the wall and knock your chest with your palm and hear the echo for the sound of god, and answers for your questions. You have to ask a question in your heart and hit your chest equivilant to a odd number sequence be it 3,6 or even 59 which was what I did. 59 times -.-"

10.00 - Went on to the next time Ta Prohmn (:
It is unique due to its connection with nature.
I think it is build by a King for his mother, and there were Jewels and Precious Stones in stored on the walls so that the entire temple seems to glow at night. But they were removed (:
There was an echo room too (:
And the tress that grow in that temple were HUGE and GIGANTIC is like 3 times the height of the tallest tree in Singapore (:
Some tress that grows ON the temples resemble shapes and animals like there was one on the entrance and it's shaped like a python and naga( Sea Serpent )
The temple was quite dark (:

11.30 - Went for lunch at the entrance, picnic (: but wasn't the same.
We ate beside a large river known as the Emperor's Swimming pool.
Well, I didnt eat much as I don't feel hungry at all -.-"
And also, there were 3dogs -.-" watching us as we eat.
Ate quite fast though and took some photos zzzzzzz.

1.30 - Boarded the bus again and went on to the Banteay srey a Maiden's Temple
This temple was quite small but very intersting, it has a very detailed explanation.
The tour guide said that the Hindu God Vishnu had 10 Avatars, I can remember some - A Turtle, A Centaur, A elephant head but a human's body, A demon , can't remember le (:
Well this temple mainly exhibits Carvings (:

4.00 - Back To HOTEL (: Had like an hour and 30mins to prepare for dinner (:
So I bathed and rested for a while as all the waking is making me feel feeble. (:

5.45 - Met at lobby with everyone and boarded the bus and departed for dinner (:
In the bus, I emo-ed through, thinking of ****** can't help it. Feel like I am bursting.

6.30 - Reached the Restaurant and did a cheer lead by the Song Commitee (:
Tick Tock Cheer again -.-"
Proceeded to take our food from the trays (:
As usual I took the least (:
Haqim was god, he took something like Mount Everest (:

7.00 - After we ate we played some games together, normally is we, the games commitee start a game within ourselves and then everyone will start coming. The game for today is I think, Mafia.
It was total fiasco -.-"
Wa, It's already so obvious that Benjamin was the Mafia and I was the detective. -.-"
I chose him correctly -.-"
But cannot convince the rest to vote him out -.-"
In the end, they say I look much more suspicious -.-" then they were all murderer -.-"
So Benjamin won (: Congrats though. -.-" Your acting is top notch.

8.00 - Back to Hotel,
Had a 5 mins break for the washroom and changed to our flip-flops for reflection time (:

8.10 - When all were present, we moved the furnitures so as to sit in a circle (:
So the games commitee started the reflection to spice up the mood (: we played a game -.-"
The mafia again -.-" actually its quite boring at we had to keep on closing our eyes -.-"
Well, Ms Chow LOST (: She's the mafia HAHAS (:

8.30 - Officially started our reflection. Handed in the worksheet and then started on the reflection.
And Preparation for our CIP programme, the Building and Teaching group (:
I think we had to draw a community within our commitee too (:
Erm, we drawed according to the Five Defenses
Mainly,
*Social - Education - Siti
Psychology - Rehabilitation - Jinwei I.C.
Military - Army - How Kar
Civil - Ambulance - Syahirah
Economy - Airport - Benjamin

Our community name was - Bright Future Community
I did a introduction speech for our group (: so they continued (:
The other groups did something like,
Clement's Group, Welfare Commitee did - DnGu Community, Do not Give Up
Huang Suan's Group, Luggage Commitee did - Lug Land (:
Kar Hoe's Group, Songs Commitee did - Song Community
Anyway enough of reflection.

10.30 - Back to my room, clement had officially moved into my room, although without the consent of our teachers -.-"
I bathed again, in the bath tub (: hahas very soothing (:
Clement watch TV (: so yeah

11.00 - Huang Suan Came over to my room (:
We ate cup noodles and watched TV together (: hahas
was quite enjoyable (:

12.00 - Went to bed (: It's somewhat Comfortable (:
Again Clement sleep first (: hahas.

~ Day 3 ~
- 1st Novemebr
- Weather: Drizzling
6.00 - Woke up not quite refreshed ):
Clement bathed first caused I couldn't get out of my bed, it's way too comfortable (:
Anyway, there was this unexplained blood stains somewhere near the TV -.-"
Nevermind, don't mind it then (:

6.45 - Went for Breakfast
This time only Kar Hoe, Miss Chow and Benjamin were there -.-"
I guess Kar Hoe and Benjamin had learnt their LESSONs (: hahas
Anyway, they always come early and eat eat eat until 7.30 -.-"
Today I got chicken wings, Pancake and a cup of VERY sweet tea, had 8 teaspoons of sugar in it (:

7.30 - Boarded the bus glad that everyone was punctual (:
We set off for the village (:
The trip was around 45 mins (:
Slept in the bus (:
Everyone was super down la -.-"

8.15 - Arrived at the outskirts of the village, had to walk 600metres to the school (:
But before going to the school, we had a village tour (:
To get to know how the villages live.
Well, they mainly live off chickens and small fishes.
The Cambodians have one saying " When theres water, theres fishes (:"
Our Path had to be rerouted because of water buffalos -.-" they seemed unfriendly -.-"

9.15 - Made our way to the school.(:
Well, just when we were about to reach the school -.-"
There was this herd of buffaloes coming our direction -.-"
Well, as there is only one paved road and other side was the paddy fields we had no choice but to chance on the road -.-"
The Water buffaloes CAME RUSHING TOWARDS US -.-"
Those people in front -.-" were scared off their legs as they rushed towards the fields -.-"
Well, I shall tell you how it feels to walk on the village grounds -.-"
There were mud everywhere and cow dungs every corner -.-"

9.30 - Greeted by the principal and the CARPENTERS (:
We were briefed once more and our groups had to go to our venue (:
So I from the building group had to proceed to the skeleton of a library (:
We were taught how to Nail (:
I find it quite challenging (:

10.00 - We were taught how to shave the bamboos to make them usable (:
Well, I nearly chopped off my fingers -.-"

10.30 - We look as the carpenters set off the make the smaller frame of the structure.
We watched and learn, while I occasionally shoot questions.
Then to not let Ms Chow scold us for not doing anything, I went and help the carpenter (:
I borrowed his hammer and started hammer -.-"
Basically, I injured myself and I throw my own face -.-"
Because I don't know how to hammer properly -.-"
He used 3hits to hammer the nail in, while i use 20+++ -.-"
Thankfully, I wasn't the only one -.-" Everyone was like that (: hahas

12.30 - We break for lunch (:
The frame was not even a quarter done -.-"
But we were hungry, so we walked all the way 600m of mud track back to the bus where it stood waiting -.-"
In the end, we eat outside, I sat under a super low lying tree that my head nearly touched the leaves -.-" It was kinda creepy.
I, along with a few others, were afraid that some insect will drop from the tree into our lunch -.-"
Anyway, the lunch was really crappy -.-" An egg, mushroom soup and a rotten apple -.-"
But it was better than the kids there, they have nothing to eat ): haix
So I took my apple along with the rest who don't want to eat the fruit and gave it to the kids (:

1.00 - Walked 600m back to the school -.-" Seriously, everyone should have stepped on cow dung by now. (:
The "Teachers" were late for class, (: hahas, and they were still strolling along, taking pictures -.-"
Teachers mainly means the teaching group (":

1.30 - Continued working and working with Xi Jie as the IC (: hahas
So erm, I did a bit of shaving the bamboos and nailing the frame together.
In the end, I think shaving is not my type, so I concentrate on nailing (:
Me Haqim Clement and Siddiq proceed to do the frame (:
Erm, I did mostly the left side (:
BUT, we did a very poor job -.-" SADDEN
Well, I pound my thumb more than 5 times -.-"
It was so red and puffy, but I refuse to rest, gungho ma (: hahas
NAILING IS FUN DE LO (:
Even though my poor thumb was injured badly, I still held on to my job (:
I think Huang suan and Kar Hoe good at shaving (:

4.30 - We interacted with the kids there for a while (:
Singing | The More We Get Together | If you are happy and you know it.... | London Bridge
Erm, they don't understand a word of english
Sad Kar Hoe -.-" He tried to raise their spirit by saying
" Hey Guys! How are you Doing??! "
Erm none of them answered ): SO COMICAL LA (: then he sian diao (:
Erm, I was at the back doing some chicken dance -.-"
I don't want de, but no choice -.-"
Must entertain them ma (:
Actually I can feel empathy pouring out of me le (:
Like a burning passion within me (:
We did a lot of things with them using hand signs lo (:

5.30 - We prepared to leave the premises, when we saw ms chow really frustrated with the library frame -.-"
Apparently the chief carpenter wasn't really please with our work ):
Said that our frame was really crooked and cannot make it
We had to fix it tomorrow (: or the carpenter will do it, which was a disgrace. ):
Ms Chow sad that we need to really put our hearts into building this library (:

6.00 - Back to the Bus
Since we were late, we went straight for dinner (:
Anyway before that the teachers had to buy some markers and stuff for the teaching group (:

7.30 - Had dinner at the same restaurant again, actually that restaurant not bad de (:
But just a very little variety of food -.-"
Did the SAME cheer again (:
But this time we played a game known as "Game of Laughter" ^^
It was created by clement and me (:
We played this game with Kar Hoe and his group
This game is like, Game master will select one joker, that joker must make anyone laugh in 2mins, if he/she fails he has to drink CHILLI (: if he does make people laugh, the joker position will be transfered to the person who laughed, so on and so forth.
Hahas, Siti was the one who keep on laughing la -.-"
And then when it's her turn, she cannot make people laugh -.-"
Then other groups joined in, mainly luggage group (:
Li PING pro joker la -.-" don't think she very quiet -.-"
She nearly made me laugh -.-"
But in the end Jia min laugh first lo (:
Jia min noob joker -.-" she dunno how make people laugh, in the end the teachers save her, say that its time to board the bus -.-"

8.30 - Back to hotel
We got 45 mins to wash up and proceed for reflection (:
I did a very quick wash up (:
So did clement
Then Huang Suan came over, and we watched Vampire Slayer on the TV for about 10mins before going down to the dining area for reflection

9.30 - REFLECTION (: haahs
I seriously forget what we did during reflection but only one thing
Ms Chow had a few processing cards and she spread them out on the ground
We had to choose one and think of what does the card have to do with the today's activity
I picked Thunderstorm (:
And I was first to present my answers -.-"
I said something like, even though the rain caught us, we still carry on with our work (: and something else, can't remember.

11.30 - Back to Room (:
hahas, I changed into my pajamas and went to my bed and watched so TV
Then clement pig de -.-" say he tired wan sleep -.-"
So I let him sleep lo, then I sleep too (:
HAHAS (:

~ Day 4 ~
- 2nd November
- Weather, Quite Sunny, Results in many sunburns -.-"

6.00 - Had a morning call (:
Woke up, couldn't sleep well last night -.-"
HAD dogs barking all night la, -.-" got ghost meh? -.-"
Bathed quickly and packed my things for later (:

6.45 - Went for breakfast,
Saw Kar Hoe and Benjamin down there again -.-
Early birds -.-"
I think " Once bitten twice shy" (: hahas
Had Pancakes, Chicken Wings and Tea (:

7.00 - Went back to our room, before that, went to huang suan's room -.-"
Found out that he is still sleeping -.-"
So he and Yi siang rushed and went down.
According to Huang Suan,
The reason why he cannot wake up is because of Yi siang, Watching TV till 1AM. -.-"

7.30 - Went to the lobby and waited for Ms Chow to come (:
Had a chat with the lady boss (:

7.45 - BOARDED THE BUS FINALLY (:
Had Air Con and wanted to sleep la -.-"
So we proceeded to the village again and to the school 600m of mud walk (:

8.30 - Had to buffaloes in our way because it's early and they had gone grazing (:
So our path is cleared (:
Erm, we greeted the carpenters and principal again (:
Had our bags deposited in a classroom and proceeded to work (:

8.45 - This time, our building group were more organised (:
6 of us were of the Nailing Group mainly - Haqim IC | Jinwei | Clement | How Kar | Siddiq | Benjamin |
We proceeded with our jobs (:
Had a few injuries but only a few.
My Skills were of top notch now (: hahas well, of a standard that is quite ok (:
Had a seriously hard and hot time repairing the frame.
In the end, the carpenters took over and we did a new and bigger frame (:
And now we need to do it precisely, straight bamboos, straight nails (:
We switch between two groups (: 3 each
One person nails, one person check vertical allignment, the other check horizontal allignment (:
So with our efficiency, we were able to finish the frame some time after lunch (:

11.30 - Breaked for Lunch (:
600m mud track again back to the bus for lunch (:
Lunched -.- EGGS AGAIN, but better than nothing ):
We had oranges today, so I collected them and pass it to the locals again (:
I ate very little lo (:
Got scolded for littering ): sorry.

12.30 - Tracked back to the village school

1.00 - Teachers went back to their own group and builders went back to building the frame (:
Our frame was half completed (: and VERY STRAIGHT
You can see the contrast between the first and the second frame lo (:
We complete the frame till 3/4 then the carpenters could'nt stand our slowness -.-"
So one of them helped us, wa, he very pro, one person can beat us 6 people 2folds =.="
His is SKILLED(:
So erm he helped us complete the last 2 columns (:
They patched the Leaves on the frame again (: To Make it very airy (:
The library was like 3/4 completed and now all thats left is the front view frames (:
Two really smal frames did it (:
Erm, the last we did it quite quickly (:

4.00 - EVERYONE in the nailing group starting calling me "gangster" and "Leader" AND "Chiong" -.-" Gang leader -.-"
I think because I chiong through the frames la -.-"
By then I can nail one point with 4 hits -.-"
And saw the protruding edges Very quickly lo (:
So they call me "Chiong" due to my gungho-ness
Hahas -.-" in the end the whole day called me chiong -.-"
Then there was once Siddiq and Clement said -
Clement - Eh someone touched my butt you noe.
Siddiq - Eh Chiong someone also touch my ass, want beat him or not?!
Me - -.-" No nno need -.-" cause it's good that people touch your ass, you know what that means? It Means you are SEXY -.-"

This made them wolf-whistled (: HAHAS comical la -.-"
Then they say wooooooooo Chiong SIol -.-"
Then every photo must me in middle de -.-"
Took a photo with building group (: hahas

4.30 - Left the premises (:
Happy that we completed our library, (:
We are left with the sign board which was for tomorrow (:
Happy that our work was done and that we pulled through the 4th day (:

5.00 - Back to the hotel (:
Had 45mins to wash up and rest (:
So I bathed once and plan to bathe another time later (:
Clement bathe too, because the stench was unbearable (:
Ate some Crackers (:

5.45 - Waited for late-comers at the lobby -.-"
So I talked with ms Hafiza and Mdm Chok (:

5.50 - Boarded the Bus (: hehe
Set off for the restaurant again (: hahas
SAME RESTAURANT everyday eat egg -.-"

6.15 - At the restaurant (:
Did some cheer and then Games committee first to get their food (: HAHAS
So I ate the least again -.-"
SAD SIA.
Then haqim wa, he ate mount everest + mount fuji la -.-" so good apetite (:
Anyway I ate so little and I didn't get desserts -.-"

6.45- After my dinner
WE Played a game called, LOSE APETITE
That game was created by me, out of boredom la -.-"
I got the idea from How Kar (: cause he keep talking about shit -.-"
Ok, as I saw Jia Min eating HAPPILY in front of me (:
I Grew some devil horns, me and how kar bombard SHITS on her plate
Well, not shit, just VIRTUAL shits (:
hahas, we said alot of things lo.
Take for example ( In Chinese ),
Me - Wow, How Kar, I wonder how she continue eating that pile of shit without flinching.
How Kar - Ya lo, I am impressed man, she can even eat cow droppings!
Me - Wow, Now she's eating that shit from the toilets *Points at the toilet*
How Kar - Wa, I applaude her man. *Claps*
Huang suan - Wa Jinwei you so bad ^^
Me - No la, just feel like shiting on her plate.
Jia Min - Wa lao !! YOu make me LOST APETITE!!! Push away her fruit bowl (:
hhaas I won (: LOLs. So this is how the game is played
In the end, we decided to play this game the next day before dinner (: HHAAHS

7.30 - Well, The teachers sad we had to go
We boarded the bus and and and and Set off for the hotel lo (:
Great, I feeling hungry (: haahs

8.00 - Stoped at a petrol station to stock up water and SNACKS (:
HAHAS, I bought pringles and stuff (:

8.30 - We were given 5mins for toilets and changing into flip flops (:
Rushed up the stairs to my room on the 4th floor -.-"
Me and clement used the toilets and rushed down again -.-" we were early la -.-
The teachers were late -.-

8.45 - Reflection officially started with a game from our committe (:
We played Concentration game (:
Here goes lo -
Concentration Concentration
This is a game of concentration
number number, number number.
Hahas, first to be eliminated is Yi Xiang number 1 HAHAS
Kar Hoe als made a stupid mistake lo (: so he was eliminated (:
Huang suan (: FUNNY SIA Leslie said his number like 1818, 4 4
Then Huang Suan wasn't concentrating he replied 18,18, --
Therefore he is eliminated (: should be 4 4 , ----
Haqim the best lo, he was eliminated honorably,
He tio 5 times in a row -.-"
The once who wasn't eliminated were 5 people including me -.-" cause My number was called last then 10times (: Lucky.
Those who was eliminated had to do chicken dance hahas (:

8.45 - Had reflection, we did our reflection as per normal and I forgot the details (:
Just that Benjamin had to share his reflection on these three questions -
1) What is enjoyable throughout the trip?
2) What caused discomfort during the trip?
3) What is one application you had learnt?

Well I will answer these myself briefly (:
1) The visits to the musuems and tourists places (:
2) The rain and the mud
3) Difference between Sympathy and Empathy

10.30 - Back to our Room (:
Clement funny la -.-"
He say he tired -.-
THEN Huang Suan came over
We on the television and guess what?
We saw DOA on the TV channel -.-"
Then Clement wanna watch but I force him to go bathe first -.-" can't stand the stench
He in the toilet very noisy say what -
Wa, I want watch DOA de. NB I see DOA I wanna F*** -.-"
Then Huang Suan was talking on the phone with Jia Min suddenly broke out laughing very madly -.-"
Huang Suan then say that Jia Min and her gang wanna come over to my room for party -.-"
As I was really tired -.-"
I told them NO!
But they still come -.-"
Make our room very very very very smelly and dirty la -.-"
You guys noe wat party was that? Cup noodles party -.- "
Pure lameness for them la -.-" Should have organise a Bachelor's party for clement better sia -.-"
Clement say he want watch FTV -.-"
I was going to tell him to go to another room la -.-"
He said he was joking -.-"
Crap man.

11.30 - FINALLY TIME TO SLEEP (:
HAHAS SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP (:
VERY SOUNDLY LO. CLEMENT SNORES !!!

~ Day 5 ~
- 3rd November
- Weather Bright and sunny, Sunny Rain

6.00 - Slept too soundly -.-"
One shot till 6.00am -.-"
Seriously I think I only slept a wink ):
DAMN tired la -.-"
But on the brighter side, it's the last day
Went to bathe (:

6.15 - Came out of the bathroom for clement to bathe (:
Pack my stuff for today and put my camera and wallet into my bag (:
Well, looking for today's farewell party at the village (:
styled my hair a little

6.45 - Went down for breakfast (:
Today earlier then Kar Hoe and Benjamin (:
Hahas, only Ms Chow was eating breakfast there (:

7.00 - Went to call Huang Suan at the lobby -.-"
Turns out he was still sleeping -.-"
Crap, I think he slept very soundly too (:
Anyway, yesterday dogs didn't bark (:

7.30 - Boarded the bus right on time lo (:
Had a really good time sleeping in the bus (:
Traveled to the village again (:

7.45 - Stopped at a bread shop (:
To buy bread and stuff for the chief carpenter and the carpenters for their hard work (:
Only the teacher's went down though (:

8.45 - Had to walk 600m of mud track to the school -.-
Though today there were lots of stray dogs (:
But no sign of buffaloes (: which was a relieve (:

9.00 - We observe how the Chief Carpenter did the signpost (:
And after the carpenter did what he had to, Kar Hoe took over and painted his words (:
Looks like a realy well did sign post (: haahs
Anyway, Kar Hoe was sweating like a mad dog -.-" (:

10.00 - We Hanged up the sign post and took lots of picture with it (:
Mainly with te carpenters (:

10.15 - Natures calling, need the toilet BUT, there isn't any in the village -.-
We did what other cambodians would do, urinate in the bushes (:
ME,KAR HOE,XI JIE, CLEMENT went to the bushes to spray our water hose -.-"
(Kar hoe made me say that -.-")
Anyway, Kar Hoe had the most liquid -.-"
Clement urinated on his own hand -.-"
LOLs, we were laughing madly about that la. -.-"

10.45 - Farewell party commences (:
We distribute our gifts to the children there (:
one by one, we ran out of gifts -.-" we took the hotels, comb and brushes and gave it to them (:
HAHAS, I feel that it was kinda insincere ):

11.15 - Presented gifts to the principal, teachers and the carpenters (:
(; and we took a group picture with everyone including the children (: haahs
It was really memorable
Theres this crowd who were so interested in my braces -.-"
That everytime I smile, they giggle -.-"

11.30 - went back to the bus for our lunch (:
ATE LITTLE AGAIN (: but nevermind can survive can le (:

12.30 - Boarded the bus lo,
Took a picture of a pig!!! (: It was so big la -.-"
It was a 2 hour ride to the Wild Life Conservation Centre (:
So I slept throughout the ride (:

2.45 - Went to the entrance of the centre and it says toilet -.-"
We went to the entrance of the toilet and saw -.-"
Tourists - 2000riel per toilet ticket -.-"
2000riel = 50cents USD. -.-"
50cents for a toilet break? -.-"
Chill man, I am not going in -.-"

3.00 - Gathered outside the entrance to the Wildlife Conservation (:
As we enter the Conservation premises, we saw a duck (: SO CUTE la -.-"
We were greeted by 2 tour guides lo (:
But only one did the talking (:
Ok, let's get to what animals we saw at the Conservation (:
We saw, Peacocks, Monkeys, Chimpanzee (: PORCUPINE!!! , BILLs, WORMBATS, WATER SNAKES AND MANY MORE.
The most memorable one was the porcupine la -.-"
Its so cute, (:
And we were playing a game, we need to scare the porcupine so that it unleashes its spikes (:
Hahas, I was successful on the first note, but anything after that, I can't le lo.
I think the porcupine grew accustomed to me (:
Ms Chow Stepped on an ant mount -.-"
Well, in the end, we went to a library and saw many turtle shells (:
We were there for about 1hour (:

4.15 - Boarded the bus, (:
Very happy that no more BIG RED ANTS can attack me la -.-"
Quite fun though (: we went to the breeding grounds (:
We were heading towards the central market for our Last night's shopping (:
The central market was at Siem Reap City, So I slept through the journey again (:

6.00 - At the central market, we were given half an hour for shopping (:
Actually it's quite a lot, considering the size of the market and it's items for sale
It's not much, few paintings, few displays and nothing more -.-"
the first shop u visit will sell the same thing as the next -.-"
So it's kinda boring lo (:

6.45 - Boarded the Bus and went on to our next destination (: The Amazon Buffet (:
It was a 15mins trip (:
And I was awake the whole journey (:

7.05 - Actually the food there very little la -.-"
3 Counters thats all -.-"
Only have a few cuisine -.-"
What a waste -.-"
But nevertheless its good compared to the previous nights (:
With the beef and french fries and DESERT (: hahs
Fact is, I ate the least again!!!
Well, not compared to siti, she was sick ):

8.00 - Watched the performance put up by the locals, the Apsara Dance (:
But didn't pay much attention to it.
After they finished we went up to take a group picture (:

9.00 - BACK TO HOTEL(:
We were given 45 mins to wash up and meet at the dining area (:
I went up to bathe (: well, did a very fast one as I will be using the bathe tub later on (:
Then clement also bathe lo -.-"
Last night le lo, in the hotel (;

9.45 - Went down to the area and reflection started (:
Erm, well, we started off by writing our reflection and Mr Yoong said that mine was chosen as one of the best reflections out of 5, so I need to stay back for an interview -.-"
So we wrote our reflections on that booklet -.-"

10.00 - Ms Chow Arrived, So we had a prize presentation (:
For the Best Quiz, We have Jinwei, Clement, Syahirah and Irene ? (: I not sure, because I just remember me and clement hahas (:
For the Best Reflection, Jinwei, , Syahirah, Haqim and Li Ping (:
For the Loudest Cheer - Yi Siang
For the Hidden Potential award - Suzzy (:

10.30 - We were told and we gave our thanks to Ms Chow and the teachers (:
Ms Chow - For such a wonderful Vendor (: For doing something extra (:
Teachers - For spending time with us in Cambodia (:
And then everyone went back to their respective rooms (:
And the four of us had to stay back for the interview
Haqim went first, he spoke for a long time la -.-
Then it was my turn, I spoke for like 5mins? But Ms Chow said it was great (:

11.00 - Went up to the hotel,
Had a bath tub refreshing shower (:
and Watch the Man Vs Wild on Discovery Channel (:
It was totally cool la -.-" How he survive (:

11.45 - Anyway, As clement was bathing I made Milo for him and myself(:
Me and him drank it in one breath (: like a emo party lo (: two person (:
But we prefer this way (:
Hahas.

12.00 - Clement very tired -.-"
Then I also join in tired also -.-"
So we decided to sleep and wake up at 4am (:
(: LOLS.

~~ The End Of The Cambodia Trip ~~
p.s. If there's anything I missed out please tell me (:

~ Photos!!! ~
*Will be edited again (: Or preferably on the next post (:

ARGHH!!!
I USED 2DAYS FOR THIS POST !!! -.-"
Well, It was a memorable trip though (:

Summary - Don't bother to count -.-"
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♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥

Chapter 8 - Failure is the Mother of Success

2008-10-29T01:53:00.006+08:00

♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥
♥ Love ♥ Love ♥ Love ♥
♥ Hugging in the Rain ♥

♥ My arms are here to protect you ♥
♥ I will make your heart again ♥
♥ Clear your mind ♥

Current mood -
~~Enlightened~~
~~Happy~~
Neutral
~~Emo~~
~~Sad~~
~~Terrible~~

♥ Quote of the Day - Failure is the Mother of Success, I will never stop loving you ♥
♥ Message of the Day - Are you going to give me a cold shoulder for the rest of your life? 0: Don't look at me like a migratory bird.♥

~ A Day of Reverence ~

12.00 - Woke up (: Lols quite late right? Because I slept at 3am (: so I sleep for 9hours O.O (:
Longest night I ever had this year ):
Anyway need to wake up because someone called me on the phone): zzzzzzZzzzz
Nevermind, got to thank him though (: If not I will be still on my bed ):
Anyway, went straight to toilet because my hair looks stupid ):

12.30 - Bathed and "Groomed" (:
Refreshing and Enticing (:
Well, Skipped breakfast, as you could not count eating at 12.30 breakfast (:
Ate some snacks, mainly Super Rings and Kit Kat (: ALL MY FAV!!!

1.30 - LUNCH (:
Ate Fried Chicken (: muahaahah Delicious, But I think I gained some fats ):
I think my maid got the hang of cooking a delicious meal (: hahas
I wanna learn to cook le ^^ Sounds fun

2.00 - Played DOTA with clement and Cousin all the way till 5pm ):
Wa Lifeless le, haixhaixhaix ): ):
We lost all the games, partly because I was really angry that everyone thought Zen|F is a clan -.-"
Anyway, they keep scolding us -.-" which made us scold back, although we tried to control the fire, but to no avail ): ):
Another factor is because Ming jie is not playing -.-"
Now he is known to me as "Pang Seh" king ):
Very angry with him, but nevermind, even without him we can soar.
But anyways, because of him, we have 2 public guys in our team which make us very disorganize.
Then clement almost going to return to his habit ):
Well, we lost due to our hot-headness and little of our "skills" ):
Next time when playing dota must stay calm (:
Or maybe I get a fluorine toothpaste (:
As it's said that flourine milds the nerves ):
Do you feel cheated? As they say fluorine actually whitens your teeth. ):

5.30 - Very bored, cause keep on lose and keep on spending time in front of computer, eyes are tired. ): ): ):
I went to my piano bench and sat, looking outside the window at the distant green trees (:
Longing for some great miracles to happen ( Contradicting my previous post huh?) ):
But the miracles never did happened
Anyway I played a bit of piano too (:
Songs are namely - Dandelion's Promise | The Musician | Sadness and Sorrow |
Clement also introduce me one game known as, Atlantica ^^ It's kinda fun and it's turned-based strategy game (: So it needs quick reflexes. (:
Cool, My download speed much faster than his (:
What I finish downloading by 1.5hours, he took 3hours, cool huh? (:

6.00 - Really cannot take the heaviness of my eyelids ): ):
Went back to bed, really a pig hor? -.-"
Slept all the way to dinner ^^
Dreamt of a serene place full of butterflies (:

7.15 - Woke up, not exactly refreshed ): ):
Guys, I have a question to ask.
Seriously, why do we always wake up and find ourselves much more tired than before we sleep? That's when we take a nap isn't it? Or is it because we were still at dreamland? ):
So ate dinner, which was like so feng fu (:
4 dishes ^^

7.45 - I am picking up fruit-eating again (:
Ate lots of watermelon today, I could had been in a watermelon spree ^^
Just that I can't resist the temptation of juicy watermelons (:
I ate more than my sister -.-" she ate some papaya and mangoes too ^^

8.30 - Back to Atlantica with clement -.-"
He very funny, keep on take my kills and my loot -.-"
I kill, he take, I kil he take ):
But I did the same to him too (:
SO fair fair ^^

9.00 - Bathed again (: Refreshed and rejuvenated ^_^
My nose are full of pimples -.-" omg
I think I going lazer treatment la 0.-"
Acne is killing me currently, not dengue ):

9.30 - Back to Atlantica again (:
Well, this time I go steal clement's kill (:
Wow, he lvl 9 le -.-"
Always ps me de.........

10.45 - DOTAed with clement and cousin again):
Cousin said he would DC anytime, but I think thats crap. ):
Anyway, lost again -.-" Today seems cursed, keep on losing -.-"
Well, If there is no Fall, there wouldn't be Rise isn't it?
Failure is the Mother of Success, there you have my title (:

11.30 - Played DOTA again -.-"
THIS TIME FINALLY WIN
Actually because of my cousin la, he very professional
But before he become professional, we helped him (:
So thats how teamwork works (:

12.30 - Talked with my cousin on the phone -.-"
Well, didn't know so much to chat about, we chat for 1.5hours man. ):
It's like talking with her, only that this one is with a man lols. (:
Ok, Talked about DOTA and how to improve DOTA skills -.-"

3.00 - Read Brisingr, zzzz seriously I very slow on that book. -.-" ): ):
I could not concentrate on the book le ): Too tired le

3.50 NOW - Even while typing this post, I feel like sleeping, eyelids are both drooping ):
My fingers keep on typing wrong words. ):
And my mind has been inflicted by serious thoughts, of Love. ):
Of how I was, after that declaration, Ignored or cast aside ):
While I guess this is what they call - Aftermath of Love ):
The part where love is found one-sided, unrequited love is the most painful of all ):
Which is whats happening to me now. ):
Woots I am the only one awake and active on msn now (:

♥ Photo of the Day ♥

See those two love birds? (:
I am "jealous" of them -.-"
They are so lovely and loving with each other (:
I wish we were like them, but lets say that wishing for miracles are useless (: as my love is unrequited. ):
Anyway, you have your life, and if you don't want me to intervene, I won't, But I still Love you no matter how bad you make me feel. (:

p.s. Will we return to the days where we had romantic nights of laughter? I really hope that day wouldn't be a miracle, I hope it will be reality, I will make it reality.

LOVES ♥
♥ To All My Friends - Would you stop psing me?! I Adore You ♥
♥ To My Family And Small Family - Hope you guys miss me (: I Miss You ♥
♥ To _You_ - Your voice is the song of the mermaids, I Love You~♥

Summary (:, ):, -.-", ♥
----> Smiles (: - 37
----> Sad Faces ): - 34
----> Diao Faces -.-" - 16
----> Loves ♥ - 27

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70mins for Blogging (:
Serously into it (: It's kinda fun.
O yeah, forgot to mention,
I will be leaving for cambodia on thursday which means thursday 6am (:
It's kinda early and we need to reach the airport by 3am So I won't be blogging tomorrow and for the rest of the 6 days there (:
I hope you guys will miss this blog's update because I put a lot of effort into updating (:
Well, at most I will leave my will here (:
♥ My Will ♥
If something were to happen to me at Cambodia,
♥I will have this blog tell my Mum and Dad " I Love You" and appreciate your guidance and care. I am sorry I am not that filial as a son, but I will be. And the effort you made for bringing me into life. I very cherished my life and lived it to the fullest (:
♥I will have this blog tell my sister that, although sometimes you are a pain in my ass, but I still Adore you and care for you (: It's so wonderful having such a great sister like yourself (: Take care.
♥To Hippo and Hotdog - Hey you guys must keep sleeping on my bed to keep it warm alright? I will come back now and then to visit (:
♥ To my Cousins, Small Family, Eh sometimes you guys must bring hippo to mid valley alright? I will be right behind (: So you guys must take care alright? (: hahas, make sure you all end up really become good sons and daughters (:
♥I will have this blog tell my teachers, Hey thanks for putting in knowledge into my brain (: But I think its kinda late for me to use it now Thanks for everything, I appreciate it.
♥I will have this blog tell my friends, Guys continue to live your life (: As Life is short, we could die any moment. Live your life to the fullness, Cherish everything, Family, Friends and LOVE! Because you had been such wonderful friends, I want to thank you guys (: For making my life FULL.

---> Clement, Although you sometimes seem a bit harsh, but nevermind thats your personality (: Anyway I learned a number of things from you too (:

---> Huang Suan, You have been such good friends and Gay friend who had been standing by me from the day I was admitted to Swiss Cottage (: I thank you for that (:

---> Wan qin, Woooooo wanqin, you had given me strength at my lowest, help me out of troubles, stand by me, although sometimes a bit kinda too straightforward, I like your personality. Thanks (:

---> Gerald, hey this is the blissful guy!!! Hey, you are the only guy that I respected -.- ' Notice the past tense (: LOLS. ok la. Cause you are so blissful that I don't respect you anymore (: kidding, well you had been such great friend and I always remember the times when we both were at the movies (: hahas

---> Ming Jie, Eh Pang Seh king, I don't have anything to say to you, but nevermind, I forget the part where you pang seh me. Ok you had been very nurturing to me with your cute looks and chubby face. It fills my Life. And with you keep asking me questions, I grow quickly then I expected. Stay the Way you are (: Chuuby Chubby (:

---> Daniel, hey Rejoice I am mentioning you here (: hahas joking, well although you were really pervert, I think you had some good points, like, erm, well, erm, like helping me out with getting away frm hair troubles?? HAHS.

---> Shaw, Lols ok the maths genius is here. -.-" Anyway thanks for everything you "Taught" me (: you had been a great friend by comparing our hair length (: hahas. Take care (: pursue your aerospace dream (:

---> Jordan, although I don't really know you very well, (: but ok la, you had been very good friend by telling me how to change? I think you did that (: hahas.

---> Jing Xian, Woooo black guy (: jkjk, well at least your smiles and your gayness help me find smiles at my lowest moments (: I will remember you, even in death (:

---> Jia Ying, Your livelihood has made me find meaning in life in a way and another, with your smiles and "hi-fis" brings smiles to my face (:

---> Wei chong, erm, well, I dunno why I mentioning you here but nevermind. This is what I really think about you. Here goes - Even if the whole class despises you, or your attitude, or your smelliness. I for one, don't really think that matters, I think that your friendship with me has been a fruitful one (: Hope you would be less aggressive next time (:

---> Jia Wei, er, I think I feel that you hated me a lot, but nevertheless, I still treat you as a rare friend. As all my friends are rare and hard to find, I would like to cherish this friendship with you too. So ya, You have been a really good friend by joking with me and cracking jokes (: Thanks for putting smiles on my face (:

---> Larry and his gang, Erm, You guys must be hating me now , but nevermind, I still wanna cherish this friendship by remembering the good times where we crack jokes together and played arm-wrestling (: Still none has beaten me (: Jia you guys! Both in sports and academic (:

---> To my Sworn brothers(special), As life is short, Its time for you guys to pursue your future, Cherish the time with friends and remember me always (: ok? Although I wasn't a good younger 'brother' Still, I had been your brother yes? (:

---> To Cherish 7, I have nothing to say, but erm, take care ya? (: Pursue your dreams (:

---> To Jia min, -.-" you always hate me de ): I wonder why, tell me someday will you? When I
come and visit you in your dreams (: Yup take care. You had been such a wonderful friend by hating me and make me understand what a girl can do if you offend her -.-" (:

---> Leslie, Hey big guy, I can't believe I won you in arm wrestling (: Ok well, take care ya? Thanks for being my friend although you were of different race, I still liked you, as a friend (: p.s. Must win her over alright? (: I will be watching over you in heaven (:

♥I will have this blog tell my classmates that pursue your dreams even if it seems unrealistic, because believing is creating!!!
♥I will have this blog tell my scouts mate that - We have gone through fire and ice together, I still remember the times at PLTC, December camp Sec 2, which was close to hell where we hike (: Therefore let's meet again at my next life (:
♥I will have this blog, tell you readers, that although something happened, but my heart is still here at my blog and there, at her side, living to protect you.

Ya and lastly, Gerald, don't forget to help me tell her ok? (: Thanks
Omg, this makes it sounds like I am really dying, but better save then sorry (:
I rather die without regrets (:

End of Chapter # 8

♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥

Chapter 7 - Are We Done With This Silence?

2008-10-28T00:50:00.004+08:00

Chapter 6 - Does Love Weaver So Easily?

2008-10-27T01:38:00.003+08:00

Chapter 5 - Filled With Sickness, Illness and Fatigue

2008-10-26T02:04:00.004+08:00

Chapter 4 - Loneliness Devours Me

2008-10-24T22:41:00.007+08:00

♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥
♥ Love♥Love♥Love ♥
♥ Hugging in the Rain ♥

♥ My arms are here to protect you ♥
♥ Enclose your emotions ♥
♥ Clear your mind ♥

Current mood -
~~Enlightened~~
~~Happy~~
~~Emo~~
~~Sad~~
Terrible

♥ Quote of the Day - Unwillingness is a trend nowadays ♥

~ A day of Loneliness ~

9.00 - Woke up, because of MTP ( Meet the parents session ) ):
Wanted to wake up later ):
Went to bathe (:

9.10 - Bathed
Moisturized my face, its been a long time since i did that ♥
Went on to put my contacts -.-"

10.00 - took me 50mins to put in my contacts -.-"
No la, + breakfast that it (:

10.30 - Depart for school in my mum's car ^^
Saw her from my mum's car, she seems happy, well my heart skipped a beat (:
On the bright side, at least I saw her ^^
Actually Love hurts la, but devotion is needed to pursue (:

10.45 - ZzzzzZZ ):
Waited for Mr Wong so long staff room everywhere cannot find him ):
Called him on my phone ):
He said he will be at the staff room in 5 mins ):

10.50 - Mr wong came , FINALLY (:
Greeted him, he did said he was sorry though (:
FORGIVEN but not FORGETTABLE (:
Hahas, in any case, a sorry does help dim the fire ^^ I guess he know this well
Mum do all the talking like, how do they count the aggregate and blah blah...
Seriously its kinda bored ):
But pei mummy ma

11.30 - Went on to find EL teacher ):
crapp, searched high and low for her, ):
actually she is not that .... but how come i can't find her i also dunno (:
So anyway, put the long awaitededusave form in her locker

12.00 - HOMED -.-" Lifeless again.
So erm, let me recall ):
I think I called Clement ):
And guess what? DOTA AGAIN (: LIFELESS
But at least something to indulge in (:
Actually Gerald wanted to vampire, but all want dota, so dota lo (:
But Gerald have a phobia for dota or something ): so can't play together.
Anyway that round was total ownage ^^
Got something like 2 double kills

1.30 - Daniel spam my phone box -.-"
He say want go gym cause we appointed 2pm -.-"
Then i forgot that appointment ):
so I tell him come my house play play ):
He really come sia -.-"

3.00 - So Daniel step into my house ):
I immediately caught a stench -.-"
I guess he got "wei chong" Symptom ba
anyway, he nothing do go spam my piano keys -.-" ):
then he disturb me DOTA -.-" this time I played with public
I died three times because of him, pushing my mouse, spamming piano keys etc.

4.00 - Well he DOTAed on my computer -.-"
Seriously if you would to see his skills, I tell you, you would'nt wanna take another look.
Its totally off track -0- no offense daniel ): ); ):

5.00 - Nothing do, so tell daniel take IQ test with me.-.-"
Well I got 158 Whereas he got 136 (: lols.

5.30 - I say my mum coming back le so i shooed him away (:
Then I started on my piano (: PEACE ENDEAVOR coming right up
Piano pieces - Aeris Theme | Pu Gong Ying De Yue Ding | Sadness & Sorrow

6.00 - DOTAed with Ming Jie again -.-"
Really LIFELESS, haix. Clement and Gerald AND Jordan went for movies HSM3
High school musical 3 LOLs. actually i want go, but I have aikido lessons ma (:
Er, the DOTA match we won, (: cause got mj ):

7.30 - Dined, Bathed and Styled ready for Aikido (:
So went out and sat on the couch for 8pm at Cdans ):
Went up to multi purpose hall and changed into my Gi
Its seriously too big ):

8.30 - Layed the Mats and started,
Learned Wrist Locks, Throws, Chokes

10.30 - HOMED :D
Well my wrist is broken and hurting ): ); ):
Then got someone ask for my number -.-"

11.00pm - DOTAed with cousin and ming jie (:
Crapp, Remaked 3 times, still no full game de. ): ): ):
haix, dunno what to do la, I think I going to work soon.
Haix, until now still got ignored ):

12.37am NOW - Listening to Love in the Ice - DBSK
I am breaking my rules again~~
Dreading what's going to happen later (Saturday)
Seriously, I don't wanna go, until 5pm sia -l.-" nvm I 1pm go home say wrist pain. True ma (:
Hope tomorrow won't be toug
Thinking of something that has been going on and on.♥

♥ Photo of the Day ♥

On the Left - My Beloved SISTER ^^
On the Right - My Beloved Coussy (:

p.s. Love never ends with me, come to my embrace ♥

LOVES ♥
♥ To All My Friends - Please bring me out of boredom!!!, I Adore You ♥
♥ To My Family And Small Family - Got miss me ma?! (: I Miss You ♥
♥ To _You_ - Embrace your dreams, I'll Wait. I Love You ♥

Summary (:, ):, -.-", ♥
----> Smiles (: - 17
----> Sad Faces ): - 26
----> Diao Faces -.-" - 13
----> Loves ♥ - 28

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45 mins for blogging ^^
Gonna sleep, tomorrow I have scouts, which i very ENTHU to go.
Shall see you guys on monday for Sakura ^^ Please don't ps me.
Something that crawls upon me, my fretful thoughts, leaves me grasping for air.
For I am pursuing a remarkable feat (:
End of story for today, Stay tune for more (:

End of Chapter # 4

♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥

Chapter 3 - Ignored & Good Luck

2008-10-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥
♥ Love ♥ Love ♥ Love ♥
♥ Hugging in the Rain ♥

♥ My arms are here to protect you ♥
♥ Enclose your emotions ♥
♥ Clear your mind ♥

Current mood -
~~Enlightened~~
~~Happy~~
Emo
~~Sad~~
~~Terrible~~

♥ Quote of the Day - Love isn't predestined, it is nurtured ♥

~ Last Day Of School ~

5.50 - Woke up refreshed from a nightmare ):
Bathe and wore my contact lens -.-"
Took me 30mins to put them right in ):

6.50 - Reached school (:
Have to see my friends for the last time in school uniform (:
If not I will skip school le ):

7.30 - NO ASSEMBLY cool (:
Mr Wong came to class -.-"
Well he settle lots of scores with forms and the kind ):
Threatened not to give back the report book to anyone if they forgot something ):
But we know it's an empty threat (:

7.50 - Commenced CME -.-"
Well wasn't much of a big deal ):
Just that he made us laugh (:

8.40 - Geography Ms Hafiza came strolling in
Well, she collected money -.-" which I didnt bring ):
Afterwards she brought us to library lo considering how bored we were (:

8.50 - Library
I think I saw Joshua there but can't confirm
Sat down read some books ): |Sky and the Earth | Tornadoes | Volcanoes | ):

9.40 - Chinese Back to class ):
I practically read and slept through the lesson (:
Well anyway it's not that bad, at least we got sweets (:
Thanks Ms Lau

10.40 - RECESS -.-"
By the time we went down, the food were almost all sold out ):
But i still got to eat chicken chop without rice.

11.10 - Back to class MATHS
Since it's maths it means that it's Mr Wong's LESSON!
Which also implies that it's report book time (:

12.40 - zzzzzzz was falling asleep ):
He took so long to prepare and wait until the last moment to give the reports ):
What a good way to keep the excitement for the last day though.

1.10 - FINALLY long awaited results (:
Erm well, nothing to boast about, but just posting.
English Language - 64 | B4
Chinese Language - 49 | U
Mathematics - 91 | A1
Science (BIO/CHEM) - 87 | A1
Combined Humanities (S,G) - 75 | A1
Design and Technology - 39 | U
Principles of A/C - 96 | A1
Civics and Moral Education - A
Creative Aerobic Routines - B

L1B2 Aggregate - 6 , EMB3 Aggregate - 8
Total - 501/700 | Percentage 71.6%

Was quite disappointed by these 2 failures. ):

2.30 - Back home (:
Actually I have my Cambodia trip briefing but I passed it due to fatigue.

3.30 - Was invited for Vampire Fire (:
At last something to distract me (:
Ming Jie said he was a professional vampire -.-"
In the end, it was a fraud ):
Then me and him quarrel over something very insignificant ):
But I need a shoulder at that time. ):

4.30 - Introduced Island Troll Tribes to the others (:
Well, at least clement was quite good at it.
Ming Jie and Gerald, they died ):
Well, Ming Jie and Gerald find it boring ):
But me and clement finds it interesting and planed to create something like that.

5.30 - Got really bored, so I DOTAed ( Lifeless Life, Gaming whole day )
Actually I don't really like gaming ):
I prefer going out with friends and..... -.-"
Well, since no one invited me out, so I shall continue my lifeless life ):
Anyway we won that round if I am not wrong well partly because Ming Jie was too good.

7.15 - Dotaed again -.-"
This time we won again
Because we had Ming Jie on our side (:
Besides he is getting bored of DoTA ):
Haix, In future, who will share my frustration? Maybe clement and hs will ):

8.30 - Bathed (:
Cause clement's mum is using his computer.

9.00 - DOTAed again ( Seriously I am rotting at home )
I forgot the exact details but I think clement scold me for something like " Can't you see him running? ASSASSINATE!!!" then I was like -.-" "It was on cool down". ):
That's what I don't like about clement, when he is winning, he scold people 'noob' ):
When he is losing, he scold his teammates. ):
Can't there be peace when I am indulging in the game? ):

9.30+ - Played with Gerald and Clement element TD and Pyramid Escape (:
That pyramid escape, -.-" we lost due to, stupidity. ):
Element TD I won over them though (:

10.30 - DOTAed with Ming Jie since he is online and I am bored. ):
Well that round was pure victory (:
It's was 3 against 5 (: Thrilling though we won.

11.30 - Talked with my Dad over the phone (:
Talked about results, friendship and relationship -.-"
Anyway I won't reveal the contents of the conversation (:

12.43am NOW - Listening to Hey Don't Bring me Down (DBSK)♥ (:
My sister is right beside me watching Hitman Reborn -.-"
Seriously that anime, is it nice? I think it's like, lame -.-" no offense MJ (:
A mountain of thoughts ♥
I need to go back on track again ):
So fellow friends, anyone free can cal upon me for movies or anything (:

Now now, You don't think that this is a boring post with all these words ya? ^^
Cause I have got some photos back in Malaysia ^^ here it is ^^

Well this was like our 3rd serving at STAR HILL BUFFET - Kuala Lumpur MY

This was like the 4th Round ^^ hahas I gained lots of fats seriously, but it dosen't show ^^
The Glasses contains soya bean and coca cola ^^
Coconut! My Favourite is featured ^^
We had mushroom soup too ^^
Prawns (allergic), Chicken, Sushi. ^^ Was a food heaven.

DESERT ^^ MY FAVORITE Was the 20th ++ Round
Though its like 10+ scoops of Haagen Dars ^^
1 serving of mango pudding ^^
And Famous Amos COOKIES! ( Fake kind ) ^^ though delicious

Whoooo ^^
Pic of our Small Family ^^ blimey, I look dumb ^^
From the left 1st Row - Pauline, Xinman(meimei), LeeNing(small bird), Calvin(Xiao Ming)
From left 2nd Row (Behind) - Me, Lee Bin ( IceZ ), Lee Yang( Dog )
In the Middle Featuring - Jogoya ^^

On a bench outside of Star Hill Buffet Restaurant ^^
1st Row From the Left - XinMan(MeiMei), Pauline(Paulame)
2nd Row from the Left - Me(Chicken -.-"), LeeBin(IceZ), Lee Ning(SmallBird), Calvin(XiaoMing), Lee Yang( Dog )

Neo Print of our SMALL FAMILY! ^^ cool.
Featuring me as I took most of the space,
Accidental actually ^^

p.s.Good Luck for your "O"s, JIA YOU! (:

LOVES♥
♥ To All My Friends - Please bring me out of boredom, I Adore You ♥
♥ To My Family And Small Family - JIA YOU! (: I Miss You ♥
♥ To _You_ - Good Luck for your "O" I Love You ♥

Summary (:, ):, -.-", ♥
----> Smiles (: - 23
----> Sad Faces ): -26
----> Diao Faces -.-" - 12
----> Loves ♥ - 25
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I can't believe I actually spend 1hour blogging hahas (: addicted to it I guess ^^
A day has passed, An end to a chapter has been met with a sad endeavor.
For I am pursuing a remarkable feat (:
End of Story for today, Stay tune for more (:

End of Chapter # 3

♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥

Chapter 2 - A Lifeless and ill-filled day

2008-10-22T23:38:00.001+08:00

♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥
♥ Love♥Love♥Love ♥
♥ Hugging in the Rain ♥

♥ My arms are here to protect you ♥
♥ Enclose your emotions ♥
♥ Clear your mind ♥

Current mood -
~~Enlightened~~
~~Happy~~
~~Emo~~
~~Sad~~
Terrible

♥ Quote of the Day - Interrupted Fate Will Not Be Present In My Life ♥

11.30 - Woke up feeling very dizzy ):
Mind was really heavy with all my petty thoughts and feelings );
Dreamt about countless of things ):

12.00 - Ate Chocolate (: ( Kit Kat ) Favorite (:

12.30 - Piano♥ To Zanarkand | Aeris Theme | Sundial Dreams | (:

1.30 - Lunch (:

2.30 - Cannot take my cold ):
Went back to sleep in my cozy bed (:

4.30 - Woke up -.-"
Head felt really heavy again ):
Shoulders were aching badly ):

5.00 - Saw clement online -.-"
The first thing he said to me was, " DOTA!!! " (:
Now thats what I need at that time, something to distract myself (:
So we played lo -.-"
But that match lost really badly I think, because Daniel left and it was laggy ):
Then clement said he was serious about that game -.-"
Seriously I think when he's not serious, he could play better (:

6.00 - Watch Code Geass on Piggymoo NICE (:

6.30 - Was invited to play DOTA again -.-"
But then my head was bursting, so I decline and went for dinner. ):
Mum came back around this time too, she seems a bit tired from work. Should rest more (:

7.30 - Invited for DOTA -.-"
Just right on time, my mind was wandering off to emo thoughts again. ):
So met clement and ming jie on Garena and started (:
Well we won that round (:
So decided on another round

9.15 - DOTAed again -.-"
My mind wasn't there anymore ):
Was somewhere else, where my heart is. ♥
That round though, we won

10.00pm - Bathed
Went to talk to my coussy ♥
Decided on DOTA again -.-" ( Lifeless hor? -.-" )
That round lost really badly because of no teamwork ):
But nevermind, just a game.

11.55pm NOW - Listening to MIROTIC
Going to bed without a goodnight, might end up with a nightmare. ): ):
Shoulder hurts ):
My Cold is still there ):
My inner chamber hurts too ):

p.s. I hope I won't be such a pest to you. ♥♥♥

LOVES ♥
♥ To all myFriends - Let's meet for DOTA and movies ^^, I Adore You ♥
♥ To my Family and Small family - Rest more, I Love You ♥
♥ To _You_ - Hope you are alright, I Miss You ♥

Summary (:, ):, -.-",♥ -
----> Smiles (: - 12
----> Sad Faces ): - 16
----> Diao Faces -.-" - 9
----> Loves ♥ - 28
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A typical day, Sadness overcomes happiness at this point of my life.
For I am pursuing a remarkable feat (:
End of story for today, Stay tune for a new chapter (:

The End Chapter # 2

♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥

Chapter 1 - Turning Point of my life, Love is melting strangely in my Heart♥

2008-10-21T19:35:00.000+08:00

♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥
♥Love♥Love♥Love♥
♥Hugging in the Rain♥

♥My arms are for protecting you♥
♥Enclose your emotions♥
♥Clear your mind♥

Current mood -
~~Enlightened~~
~~Happy~~
~~Emo~~
Sad
~~Terrible~~

Sadness Engulfs Me From The Very Depths Of My Heart.

7.20 - Hall, ~~nearlynearlynearly~~ got my hair caught :(
Met the principal too (:
Glanced at her (:

7.50 - Went back to class, saw that charismatic teacher (:
Played GAMES (:

9.00 - Recess
Preparing to go for SBS transit trip ):

9.30 - Assemble at foyer
Took the curve ruler from Jasmin (:
Saw ****** Back view, was trying to get one more view, but she walked away. ):
Wonder if she notices me ):

10.30 - Reach SBS Transit Bus Park,
The stench of diesel pollutes my nose -.-" ):
Had a somewhat bad impression. ):

12.00 - Glad to be back at school,
But later got SCOUTs -.-" ):

12.30 - Went out for Lunch with Gerald, Adabelle, Jordan, Alfred & Clement (:
Had a somewhat great time

1.50 - Infront of Scouts Den, dreading what's gonna happen next ):
(True Enough, It was a bad day ): )

2.20 - Went to the field,
Took down the stuff that we built, Energy Consuming ):
Helped carried all the poles back to Pole Rack ):
(True nature of this is, Later we need to train our strength and bring it back again -.-")

Around 3.30 - Drizzling ):
Fall in at scouts den, again dreading what's next ):
Went and BRING ALL THE POLES BACK TO THE FIELD wth -.-" ): ):
By the end of this, SHOULDERS ACHING.

4.00 - Felt very very Short ): because of the weight of the poles -.-" 3 on each shoulder.

5.00 - WAWA, built that thing again -.-" skeleton of our would-be competition project. ):

5.40 - Crap -.-" we need to tear down everything, but it's pouring heavily, ): x2
Grabbed all we can and rushed for shelter -.-"
Was among the last few to reach for shelter as was going in and out to help ):
Everything was heavy -.-" my shoulders are aching and everyone else was no better off than me.

6.30 - Debriefing of meeting -.-"
Was half-asleep ):

7.00 - LEAVE SCOUTS DEN!!! (: (:

NOW - Blogging, talking to my coussy
Caught a cold with no one to provide warmth but myself. ):
Nursing my broken wound in my heart♥

p.s. hope my eyes will meet yours next time. ♥♥♥

LOVES ♥
♥To all my friends - I Adore you (:
♥To my family & small family - I Miss you (:
♥To _you_ - I Love you (:

Summary (:, ):, -.-", ♥♥♥ ----> Happy faces (: - 10
----> Sad faces ): - 21
----> Diao Faces -.-" - 7
----> Loves ♥ - 21
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In the End still Sad Faces ): and Wanted Loves ♥ are the most, inevitable.
For I am pursuing a remarkable feat (:
End of Story for today (:

The End

♥ Waiting for the Goddess to Descend ♥

Love in the Ice ( TVXQ )

2008-10-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

Laying underneath the stars,
on a warm silent night
I dream of perfect love for us,
and hope that it will be
Life is so sweet at your side
being wrapped within your arms
Rejoice with me, in the mysteries,
of what is yet to be

Understanding all you have been through,
I know it's hard for you but
you should learn to trust again

Just hold my hand, look in my eyes
Don't turn away and let me go
And in your arms, i'll always hold
I'll never let you slip away

This is a promise at a core of me
Take my hand and just let it be my baby
And these words i speak are all true,
I'm always here for you...

As you and I embrace you say
(babe i love you from the deepest hole in my heart)
I wannna be shelter from the storm
As you and I are lost in time
(you reach out to touch me with your loving hand)
I'm falling even more in love

I will give you strenght when you are weak
To be much more for you,
Be everything you need

Just hold my hand, I'm here for you
I swear i'll never let you go
I'll be your guide, your light at dark
For you my love I'll always be
So, look into my eyes and follow through
Just hold me tight and make it true my baby
Don't be afraid, don't hesitate coz'
I will guide you through

You came into my life (my heart)
with full of love
it feels like heaven (don't be afraid)
I belong to you and you for me
(you knoW) This is FOREVER...

Just hold my hand, look in my eyes
Don't turn away and let me go
And in your arms, i'll always hold
I'll never let you slip away

This is a promise at a core of me
Take my hand and just let it be my baby
And these words i speak are all true,
I'm always here for you...

____________________________________________________________________

I will find this in myself,
For you. . .
Love is what I live for,
To make you happy ever after.

Lyrics to new album (: (1)

2008-10-15T14:20:00.001+08:00

Hey! Don't bring me down-

Saying you’re going to leave me, saying it’s over, you’re always trying to make me waver
I know that you’re just fretful and it doesn’t change the way I think about you
(Call up Call up)
Stop trying to test me, I get tired seeing you like that
(Call up Call up)
Why do girls always want confirmation
Does a guy’s heart waver so easily?
If everything was predestined, wouldn’t life be too boring
It’s pretty dull having to express my feelings in the same way everyday

Hey don’t bring me down
Don’t turn me into such a man
If I were a man that knew the way to love, I would choose never to stop (loving you)

Hey don’t bring me down
Don’t look at me as if I’m like a migratory bird
Let’s see who’s going to protect your love in the end
Give it away Give it away Give it away now
Give it away Give it away Give it away now

Saying don’t be so distracted, saying that our love has gone cold
Why don’t you realize how precious I am?

You seem to lack confidence (Words that don’t suit you)
You really don’t know? (You don’t know I’m loving you)

(Don’t you realize) that from head to toe
Your everything captivates me
I definitely do not want to be your boring slave
Just like a oriole (T/N: Korean nightingale)
It’s pretty dull having to express my feelings in the same way everyday

Hey don’t bring me down
Don’t turn me into such a man
If I were a man that knew the way to love, I would choose never to stop (loving you)

Hey don’t bring me down
Don’t look at me as if I’m like a migratory bird
Let’s see who’s going to protect your love in the end

Stop trying to make me waver again
Just let me protect you
(I need girl I need girl I need you girl)
Stop making me seem like a worthless guy just to meet people’s expectations
(I need girl I need girl I need you girl)

Hey don’t bring me down
Don’t turn me into such a man
If I were a man that knew the way to love, I would choose never to stop (loving you)

Hey don’t bring me down
Don’t look at me as if I’m like a migratory bird
Let’s see who’s going to protect your love in the end
I need girl
I need you gir

Good news and Bad news

2008-10-13T19:17:00.000+08:00

Today got back results for some subjects (:
Maths - 129/140 (only know the marks )
Science Biology - 47.5/50
Science Chemistry (Teacher leaked the marks) - 45/50
Geography - 47.5/50
Combined humanities ( G , S ) - 75
P.O.A - 98
Chinese - Er, 50.5

Well, I can't stop thinking of something.
Something has been bugging me deeply.
I don't know how to shake it off.
My mind keeps on wandering.
To the land of Eternal Love.

My body leaves itself unprotected.
By Outside feelings of jealousy.
My mind is tired of these things.
These hatred amoung humans.

My body is ready for Love.
Because of your voice in my heart.
My mind is ready for Love.
Because of your smiles.
My soul is ready to give Love.
To you.

Dawn upon the light,
while I sit in the Bright.
Waiting in the light,
while you seek in the Bright.
Thinking in the bright,
while a penny turns into light.
Wishing under brightness,
while you leave in the light.
Embracing in the light,
while you kiss in the bright.

A penny for your thoughts?
Will you exchange it and share your feelings?
Search your thoughts before coming into my embrace.
While I lend you my limbs,
I don't expect sympathy,
just passion.
While I lend you my voice,
I could hear the song of the mermaid ( Your Voice )

Search your soul in the sunlight,
bathing through sunlight,
absorb its strength to turn it into energy,
for the right choice. (:
I will wait in the moonlight,
while you seek your answer.
I will lend you my voice,
when you need it.
I will lend you my warmth,
when you are cold.
I will lend you my ears,
when you are down.
I will lend you my shoulders,
when you are tired.
But don't forget to seek your answer...
In the midst of answers.
I will wait,
But don't forget the answer.
I swear upon my Love.

To you.

Hey Girl, Eternal Love

2008-09-28T16:44:00.000+08:00

Sexy Lover,
Can't take my eyes off you
whenever I'm next to you
With not reason,
Just that happy smile... Yeah
Such beauty cannot be compared
Because you are so perfect,
From the tip of your head to your toes, I Love You
You seem to emit a light all over.
You have taken away my soul

Hey girl,
when you're by my side I am complete as a man.
You can have the energy,
The world in front of me is fair
Hey girl,
You can plant the last of our love
Never change now.
With me eternally.

The words I want to tell you,
a man's heart has only one love
You can't erase the remnants
Come inside my heart
You have become every part of me
Because My eyes only meets you.

The people who say
there is no such thing as an everlasting love
Those that don't even have that kind of confidence
In one's life,
If true love comes
when that time comes I will know girl
The one that can take part of my heart

Never change now,

with me eternally.

___________________________________________________________________

Dedicated to (: :)

): A day of sorrow and blue :(

2008-09-04T14:05:00.000+08:00

The Way of Tarot - None
The Card of the Day - None
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Today, We got back our English test.
Well, here goes.

The word "blue" complements almost everything in my world. From the boundaries, to the center. To me, the word "blue" can mean three things; The sky, the great ocean and illness.

When I think of the magnified word "blue" my thoughts sprang towards the sky. The entity that circles the planet, which most of us sees no end to. The sky which has no end, appeal to me as a large enormous space where unlimited potential is found. Where nature resides on its very clouds. A serene feeling of home engulfs me whenever I look up to the sky. It is as if it allows me to believe, that there is no limited potential, living on ever changing clouds which represents our potential. The ever changing faces of people allows limitless doors being open allowing opportunity to surface and spread throughout the ages as the skies never falter.

I see the vast great blue ocean when I come across the word "blue". Our eyes observes that there is no end to the ocean. but the truth is, there is. even if the ocean has ends, it can house over millions of species of marine life for as long as history can proof. This shows that even if spaces are limited in our ways, we can achieve if we persevere. Even if there are limited ways, there will be unlimited possibilities that awaits us. Just like the way the ocean houses millions of marine life. As it has a calming attitude, to face every problem with a cool approach.

On the contrary, since blue represents calmness, limitless potential and unobstructed possibilities why then, do we say people who are ill that they are feeling or having the "blues"? It is because, when we are feeling blue or down, the minds of our body are calm at facing the problem at hand. Using a cool approach in solving a problem will encourage forgiveness and success. With a calm mind, countless positive ends awaits us. With a calm mind we can heal ourselves over time.

The word; the color and the way the world say and think of "blue" will surely differ. But for me, I think of it as of Unlimited potential. I see of it as Unobstructed doors. I think of it as a feeling of calmness. Therefore, I think that "blue" is the "open" and "close" of our planet earth and our mindset.

Teachers Comments -
Jin Wei,
You have used good vocab in your essay, which is impressive. However, your essay lacks content. Some of the points are somewhat vague. Please do be careful when you write an essay on this topic.
19/30

Sweat that brings Success

2008-08-30T10:38:00.000+08:00

/Ca2 Results\
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English - 61.0 ( Don't Know Why)
Chinese - 50.0 ( Expected)
Mathematics - 95.0
Science ( CHEM, BIO) - 93.0
Combined Humanities (S,G) - 98.0 ( Should be 100, just because of the class assignment ):)
Design and Technology - VR ( Think I got 0)
Principles of Accounts - 99.0

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Without pain,
There is no gain.
With gain,
There is envy.
With envy,
There is hatred.
With hatred,
Brings dominance.

Why is there envy that brings hatred,
isn't there a world that eludes them?
Isn't there somewhere that has pure Love?
Isn't there somewhere that has pure Nature?
Isn't there somebody who lacks of Envy?

Why is there hatred,
because envy is abundant,
because of our salty sweat.

Is there no other way,
to cure envy?
Is there no other way,
to cure jealousy?
Instead of fateful hatred?

Hatred is not a cure,
it is a disease.
Which pass on to those,
who are influenced.

The cure is not hatred,
it is enlightenment.
To not think of hatred,
with an envious mind.

We have been in this world,
for countless million years,
yet we choose to hate the very land,
we stand on.

The land of man,
has been disfirgured by the envious feeling of
Hatred.

Imagine a world without hate,
without envy,
full of love,
full of care.
That is perfection.
Not insanity.

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\.../TODAY\.../

Tennis session with Hsin chen.
-.-" got kicked out by the security guard.
Well, we only played for 30mins.

Now I am back home,
going to study Biology for a bit (:
Well,
I think I will play Battle field first (:

Well, See ya (:
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Black and White is my Life

2008-07-27T15:24:00.000+08:00

Something solitary
Something instrumental
Something with keys
Something with locks
Something with feelings
Something with connection

I Love My Solitude
I Love My Instrument
Keys that unlock Locks
Feelings that flow with Connections
Are what makes me

For the Keys are the White
For the Locks are the Black
Which unlocks my inner Sanctuary
Which my inner Sanctuary creates Feelings
Which Flows through my Veins

O' Veins of Love
O' Veins of Hatred
O' Veins of Disappointment
O' Veins of Joy
Carries the Noble blood of mine

For the Keys are the White
For the Locks are the Black
Which Unlocks my inner Personality
Which my inner Personality creates Courage
Which Flows through my Mind

O' Minds of Courage
O' Minds of Betrayal
O' Minds of Tainted
O' Minds of Knowledge

For the Keys are the White
For the Locks are the Black
Which Unlocks my inner Self
Which my inner Self creates Wisdom
Which Flows through my Soul

O' Spirit of Knowledge
O' Spirit of Time
O' Spirit of Dead
O' Spirit of Logic

For the Piano is my Soul
For the Pedal is my Heart
For the Keys are the White
For the Locks are the Black
Which Unlocks my Freedom
Which my Freedom creates Love
Which Flows through my Heart

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This Piece is created out of Love for the Piano
Which every time I play,
Gives me renewed courage,
Gives me Strength to overcome my Soul,
Gives me the serenity of my Sanctuary
Every time I sit on my stool,
I would feel the Loveliness of the World,
Engulfing me to play a Beautiful Piece

Angel, Devil & Cupid

2008-05-06T18:31:00.000+08:00

Angel, Devil & Cupid ( Sudden Inspiration)

I live to Love,
with my heart of truth.
I live to aid Soar,
with my Wings of Hope.
I live to Empathize,
with my Heart of Gold.
I live to encourage Forgiveness,
with my halo of Sins.
I live to lend a Shoulder,
with my pointy ears.
What am I?

I live to Hate,
with my once hurt Heart.
I live to Destroy,
with my malevolent hands.
I live to crush Hope,
with my mouth of deceit.
I live to remember Sins,
with my unforgiving Mind.
I live to encourage Ignorance,
with my twisted Trident.
What am I?

I live to shoot Hearts,
with my arrow of truth.
I live create Love,
with my magnificent Bow.
I live to answer Love,
with my lips of flourish.
I live to bring happiness,
with my sparkles of trials.
I live to ensure truth,
with my assuring eye...
What am I?

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I wrote this poem, to let you guys see how the earth is divided. To let people see how great they are, and how for them to improve. Whether they are being Angelic, Devilish & Cupid. They are l equal. Learn to accept what others are cherish them. Learn to forgive with forget.

Forgiven Sins

2008-05-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

Way of Tarot- None.
Card of the Day- None.
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Forgiven Sins
From Purest to the Untrue
From Assurance to Doubt
From Forgiven to Unforgiven
From Chaos to the Light
From Evil to Holy
From Sins to Deeds
From Greed to Enlightenment

When will this circle end?
When will reversible change occur?
When will enlightenment make its descend?
When will greed Perish?
When will Poverty be lifted?
When will Sins ever be forgiven?~

Questions within Questions,
Circles within Circles,
Doubt within Answers,
Lies within Truth,
Life within Death,
Sins within Deeds.

Questions are all we ask,
we utter them for answer.
Circles are drawn by us,
to complete another cycle.
Doubt comes with Answers,
as we seek into truth.
Lies always comes with truth,
all we want is truth.
Life always ends with Death,
no matter how hard we desire for change.
Sins are always forgiven through deeds,
for all we know and desire.

Truth is always the thing we want,
but we express lies with our actions.
Do we care?
Humanity is a Race,
filled with sins to the brim.
Why?
Because we can't care much.
Because we enjoy ourselves,
without knowing the people suffering.
Because we are arrogant.

Sins are what makes relationships worsen,
makes us wonder,
makes us curious,
makes us dwell,
makes us look death in the eyes.

Can it be forgiven?
The very answer,
Is in your shining palm,
emitting a hologram of your future.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------That message wasn't meant for me,
it was not meant for me.....

8th May - Mum's birthday (:
Summary of today's time
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100% sadness to conclude.

Take care guys.

Silence Kills

2008-04-22T23:29:00.000+08:00

The Art of Tarot- Celtic Cross
Card of the Day- High Priestess Reversed(II)

It Concludes-
Wisdom, Intuition, Decisions, Authority & Dreams.

It Adopts-
The High Priestess is the female sage, goddess of knowledge who brings insight, integrity, and wisdom. She is also known as the Papess, the female counterpart of card IV, The Hierophant, or Pope. Numbered II, she symbolizes duality and a link between the consious and the unconcious mind. Her open book represents her learning, and the pomegranate, Fruitfullness.

The Reversed meaning-
In The Reversed Position, The High Priestess warns against heeding bad advice. Someon whom you had thought reliable is not sincere, so it is likely that you are let down by an authority figure or older member of the family. You could also be rushed into making a decision withouht due consideration. Take your time and choose confidants with care.

My Opinion-
Due to the extraordinary events, The High Priestess (II), The Empress (III) & The Emperor (IV) all happened to turn up altogether. I was surprised. How could this be? What is the divine interpretation of this? So I stop to think for a moment, The High Priestess warns me against people who are not sincere, while the Empress ensures me of a conventional relationship lastly, the Emperor gives me his support in any venture, to make it sucessful.

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Endless Forest of Green,
Brings Greenery,
What do Green mean to you?
A scenery? A Place here we belong?
It won't be anymore.
The world is ending, by piling junks.
Soon the World will decompose,
and she will take us along.

We, humans, take everything for granted,
not knowing the conseqences of our actions,
not caring for the place that is lodging us over the years.
We just let it rot,
till there is nothing accept the tears of those who grieve,
for our World,
for our place of solitary,
for our friends.

Soon, all of us, will perish together,
If we don't cooperate soon.
Darkness is abundant,
Knifes are everywhere,
Stabbing, Slashing, even de-limbing.
What else can compare to these gruesome act?

Why do we work so hard for our cause?
For the ones we love?
For the ones we care for?
For the ones whom are precious to us?
For ourselves so that we..........

Distance from heaven,
Help cannot reach Earth in time,
So we could only fend for ourselves,
having heard this,
will we work together and bring a better World?
Or Corrupt and Perish to notingness?
The choice is laid,
The answers have been given.

What will yours be?
I will hear from you.

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Monday
Got back chemistry quiz,
14/15.. Oh wait, the teacher marked wrongly,
so I got 15/15 full marks,
But when i see the look on her face,
I feel a sense of remorse,
I shouldn't have surpass her like that.
This will cause her to have a sense of insecurity.
Isn't it?
I ponder.

Tuesday
Today was a fiasco,
Social studies test,
got 8/12 below average.
What have i done to deserve this?
Not a word of thanks?
Well I don't mind,
for I have done my very best, for her.
What can I do more for her?
Can anyone tell me?
I ponder

Through the Endless Forest, are my thoughts scattered.

2008-04-17T22:25:00.000+08:00

Way of the Tarot- Celtic cross
Card for the day- Wheel Of Fortune(Numbered X)

It Concludes-
Chance, Beginnings, Endings & Dreams.

It Adopts-
The Wheel Of Fortune is numbered X in the Major arcana, which, including O, The Fool, marks the half-way point in the Tarot cycle. Having embarked on the inner journey sparked by The Hermit, a crossroads is now reached. Yet as the turn of the wheel can bring favourable opportunities and therefore major life-changes, there is also the risk that the wheel turns downside.

The Upright Meaning-
A Positive Turn of The Wheel heralds a major change in your overall circumstances. The influence of the Wheel of Fortune can be interpreted as the working of explainable destiny, and, in a reading, it is usually a fortuitous card, bringing fresh enterprises and ideas that will transform your whole way of thinking and living.

My Personal Opinion-
A positive turn though might sounds good, but what is ahead of that turn? More stress? Or just my ambition? I have been thinking when I turn over this card, Should I regard this card as a blessing? Or should I not? But nevertheless, time will reveal every secret the card beholds, so all I have to do, is to go with nature and think positive.

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What lies beyond the Beyond?
What lies between the empty spaces?
What lies in our words if there is no trust?
What lies in our hearts?

Things that are limits to us.
Things that are untouchable.
Things that are empty.
Things that controls our emotions.

Beyond the doors of the shrine,
lies the oracle,
laying on her bed of roses,
waiting to be called.
With a enquiring voice,
we can call her up,
to create numbers of miracles,
to help resolve poverty.

But where does she lay?
Beyond the doors of the shrine,
in her chamber of roses,
laying forevermore,
until a voice of pureness,
summons her from her chamber,
to arose her,
mistress of Love.

Love Love Love,
Why do we keep hearing these words?
It's an emotion which is needed for us to live.
Who utters them?
Men that are devoted into caring,
Passionate people who despite being hurt,
are willing to venture out in search for happiness,
to give the other half their security,
in return for nothing.

Men should all learn to Love unconditionally,
by achieving that,
we will become a much better species,
where true Love is everywhere.
It is not easy,
but we must persevere on,
to find what we are truly made to find,
to do what we are truly descended to do,
to give Love unconditionally.

Love over Happiness,
is there such a thing?
No.
Love and Happiness are interlinked,
they work together,
once we have mutual and true Love,
Happiness will breed from Love.
Won't that be great?

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Have she forgiven me?
That question might never be answered.

Conclusion of my day-
70% Sadness ( Partly because she is sick while still coming to school )
20% Happiness ( Partly because I am having a sense of forgiveness )
10% Confusion ( Can't really explain this )

Thanks for your help everyone.
But please stop it,
it will make her feel bad.
If she feels bad, I will too.

Love is more easily demonstrated than defined.

2008-04-09T22:44:00.000+08:00

Art of Tarot- The Celtic Cross
Card(s) of the Day- III(The Empress reversed), IV(The Emperor reversed), V(The Hierophant), XX(The Judgement).

The Hierophant concludes-
Mentors, Traditional Wisdom, Spiritual Authority, Inspiration, Instruction.

It Adopts-
Inspiring Words from a respected individual. An opportunity to learn; the unlocking of truths that bring freedom. You may also find that The Hierophant symbolizes a source of comfort during difficult times, along with the knowledge that you are supported by the universe, whatever you do.

My Opinion-
Personally, I am pretty surprised by the fact that both the Empress and the Emperor reversed appear together. Empress being the (How you see yourself), and Emperor being the (How others see you), but they are all reversed. So from now onwards, I must be extra careful on things I handle.

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Beyond the vast planes of Earth,
lays freedom.
Beyond the vast aspect of Life,
lays immortality.
Beyond the vast value of Knowledge,
lays wisdom.
Beyond the very doors of our limits,
lays success.

The boundaries of Earth,
constructed to hold back mankind,
we must best this boundary,
to get what we desire of this World.
The boundaries of Earth,
eyed vividly by invading entities,
waiting to kill any weak beings.

The aspect of Life,
built by our Fathers,
for us to cherish and love,
not despise and hate.
The aspect of Life,
eyed by many,
yet unshared by those who wield them.

The value of Knowledge,
libraries and libraries of books hidden in our potential,
for us to use appropriately.
The value of Knowledge,
given to us by our Fore-Fathers,
should be treated with respect and dignity.

The very doors of limits,
constructed by our own mentality,
it there for us to break through,
and look for our true potential.
The very doors of limits,
hidden from prying eyes,
are ours to break.

Once everything is completed,
we will still be imperfect.
We forgot the important value of Love,
the very thing that awakes mankind once in lifetime.
Once we have Love for everything in our hearts,
then we will be perfect.
Sadly, no one has had it yet,
no one is PERFECT yet,
but most pursue perfection tirelessly,
including me.

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Today,
40% happy
50% sad
10% confused

Typical day for Me,
to have more sad tears than happy smiles.
Will anyone help me out of loneliness?
Will they extend a hand of trust that I need so badly?
Who can I trust in my journey?
I am awaiting the day the answer comes...

Sweet Sour~

2008-04-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

The art of Tarot: The Week Ahead Spread.
Card of the Day: Justice VII (Reversed).
It Concludes: Resolution, Balance and Fairness.

It Adopts- The Number VII represented Justice to the ancient Greeks, because it is made up of equal divisions of equal numbers, indicating balance. Here, Justice is traditionally personified as woman on a throne, the sword of liberty in her right hand and the scales of justice in her left. Her appearance in a reading can be welcomed of feared.

The Reversed Meaning- In The Reversed Position, Justice stands for its opposite qualities of a miscarriage of justice, bias, complicated negotiations, and legal wrangles that muddy the truth. Justice reversed can be seen as a prompt to act fairly yourself, and retain your integrity regardless of the manipulative influences around you.

My Opinion- I see the Justice reverse as a need to change logically, not in Love, but in mindset. I will not cage myself in the cell of darkness anymore. I will be more socialised and like able. Though I will keep my promise, and will act fairly In relationship matters, but I will give a chance for someone to express themselves rather than running away from reality.

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This feels happy,
This feels sad,
This feels annoying,
This feels encouraging.
This is the power of Love.

This feels safe,
This feels uneasy,
This feels caring,
This feels unprotected.
This is the Imperfect Law.

The Power of Love can be felt by many,
but many choose to ignore it.
The Power of Love can be felt between two person,
yet they choose to end it.
The Power of Love can be felt between Mortal and Angel,
yet the Angel is ignored.
The Power of Love can bring people together,
yet people stay way from it.

The Imperfect Law will always be Imperfect,
yet many people try to make it perfect.
The Imperfect Law will always be true,
yet most bringers of Justice show lies on their verdicts.

There is a periphery in everything we do,
what does it mean?
There is a perspective in everything we see,
what does it mean?
There is a quote in everything we lust for,
what does it mean?

Living in a society where,
Love and Hate exist.
Lost in a sea of feelings,
which should I trust?
I have slipped into the Angel of Love,
but rather I feel that I am not good enough for her.

The unhealthiness of the air,
Submerged with dirt and impurities,
Will stay there forevermore,
We breathe in feelings of the person next to you,
We share the same place in this planet,
Why not accept reality together?

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Today,
It's an interesting day,
or rather it's a most frustrating day.

Well never mind,
I will not talk about my day,
feeling a tinny bit tired,
so I guess I will sleep soon ^^

Conclusion-
50% happy
30% sad
20% confused.

Good nights.

Thinking of options.

2008-04-06T16:47:00.000+08:00

Todays Card : Unavailble.

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Imagine if the World is filled with hatred,
Will there ever be forgiveness?
Imagine if the World is filled with Happiness,
Will there ever be Sadness?
Imagine if the World is filled with Perfect Justice,
Will there ever be Crimes?
Imagine if the World is made out of Gold,
Will there ever be Poverty?
Imagine if the World expressed its Love to everyone unconditionally,
Will there ever be broken pieces?

Imagination is a strong thing,
but can the imagination become reality?
It can,
only if we work together,
and create a much better World.

Reality is cruel,
Learn to accept it instead of running from it.
Acceptance will bring enlightment.
Acceptance will bring happiness.
Acceptance will make a better World.

Imagine yourself being submerged in a Sea of Reality,
will you survive?
That is how the society is now,
will we want to change it?
And make the World a better place.

As for me,
I cannot accept the reality right now,
that is why i am feeling sad every single day.

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The World is turned upside-down. (VI Lovers)

2008-04-03T22:27:00.001+08:00

The art of Tarot : Celtic Cross.
Card for the day : VI The Lovers (Reversed)
It Concludes Maturity, Choice, Growth and Love.

It Adopts-
As Two Lovers stand in a field of flowers, the young woman offers a flower to her partner. His acceptance of gift symbolizes their choice as individuals to take the next step in life together. The Lovers card is VI in the Tarot sequence, which is liked to growth.

The Reversed Meaning-
Relationship Difficulties. Weakness and temptation; taking what appears to be an easy option that you could regret in the future. Lack of commitment and a failure to recognize the true nature of a situation or relationship.

My Opinion-
It all seems to be too true, the day, the atmosphere and the situation, all seems like this card tells me to do something that i have been running away from. What will that be? This card also states that I cannot recognize the true nature of a situation or a relationship, that is very true. I will try very hard to make this card come out in a reading in a upright way. In other words, I will try my very best in a relationship.

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Hidden in my heart,
memories of Love & Hate.
They make the most out of me.
They are my true master.
Without a mutual feeling,
I will get lost.

When I stand in the vast planes of Earth,
the Sunlight bathe through me,
washing away all pass wrongs,
and opens a new tunnel.

Perfect Love is never selfish.
It is wrong not to love at all,
better to love and selfishly desire Love,
better to wait then change,
life is more than suffering.
It is about your soul.

When I stand in the vast planes of Earth,
Moonlight dances upon my face,
Encouraging forgiveness,
and ends the tunnel.
Heavy load bidden my eyes,
the very weight,
shows how much she meant to me.

Trying to get out of bed,
when your heart is dead.
Without the help of others,
we might not succeed.
Even if we don't succeed,
Survive the fall,
and return determined than ever.

Cherish what you have,
instead of fighting over what you don't.
The next time we see dawn,
the next time the hour glass stops,
we will decide upon our future.

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6.50am
The usual.

7.15am
The usual too.

7.40am-8.40am
Mathematics- spent lots of time doing sums.

8.40am-9.40am
Principles of Accounts- too easy for a subject.

9.40am-10.10am
Exercise time- Ran only two runs out of three.

10.10am-10.40am
Recces- Rush through my homework (Trying hard not to think of what's happening beside me)

10.40am-12.10pm
Mother Tongue- We went through a worksheet, I can't believe it took the whole 3 periods.!

12.10pm-12.40pm
Social studies- We did filing, that's all. (Very sad)

12.40pm-1.10pm
English- Vocabulary and grammar things.

1.10pm-2.10pm
Biology- Was called out to draw a graph, too easy.

2.10pm-2.40pm
Lunch time- When down to eat of course.

2.40pm-3.30pm
Principles of Accounts make-up lesson.

3.30pm-3.50pm
When home to take rackets and went on to Hsin Chen's house.

4.00pm-4.30pm
Waited like idiots for the rain to stop.

4.30pm-5.30pm
Rain didn't stop, when home without touching the rackets.

5.30pm-6.30pm
Surfing the Internet.

6.30pm-8.00pm
Slept like a log.

8.00pm-10.00pm
Erm, Study biology.

10-00pm-NOW
Typing blog entry, quite long eh? (Thinking of her right now, I wonder if she misses me.)

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In summary, My day is-
30% happy.
65% sad.
5% Irritated. ( By the rain)

I wish I will recognize the true nature of a relationship or a situation.
But wishing is not enough, I will continue to express my Love.

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The World is turned upside-down. (VI Lovers)

2008-04-03T22:27:00.000+08:00

Life is always nothing but Love.

2008-04-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

The day of The Judgement.
It's regards, Conclusions - Rewards - Second chances - Evidence.

It Adopts,
An Angel Blows a trumpet, the call of the Last Judgement. Numbered XX, Which is the penultimate card of the Tarot sequence, it represents the final summing up of events before the advent of The World XXI.

The upright meaning,
A second chance. an opportunity to put right any previous wrongs and to make amends. Use this opportunity wisely, as you are being offered a way to spiritually reinvent yourself. You may also be rewarded financially for past efforts, leading to opportunities for progress in a new enterprise. With the benefit of hindsight and experience you will succeed, second time around.

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Knowledge of the inevitable lies between cards and cards,
Knowledge of the World lies in millions of books,
Knowledge of the skies lies with the oracle,
Knowledge of the future lies in our hands,
Knowledge of Love lies in our very heart.

Cards, ironically, are flimsy and yet stable with our hands.
Books, are sturdy and holds valuable knowledge.
Oracle, sleeps in the skies and comes down to the material World every now and then.
Our hands, are linkages to the material World, it helps us define feelings.
The heart, It is probably the most emotional aspect of our body, it carries the most needed feeling, Love.

Without knowledge of the inevitable, we will live.
Without knowledge of the World, we will suffer.
Without knowledge of the skies, we won't soar high.
Without knowledge of the future, we can't set targets.
Without knowledge of Love, we will fall apart.

On the other hand,
With all the knowledge of the inevitable, the World, the skies, the future and of Love.
What can we do?
That's for you to find out.
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A tiring day,
Exhausted,
Heart Broken,
Injuries.

6.50am
Reached school slummed down on the table and snored. (As usual).
Was a bit feeling very emotional.

7.15am
Went to the hall.

7.40am
Social studies, I wonder if I have the right to mark peoples essay.

8.40-9.40am
Principles of Accounts- Was a breeze, but i wonder what will the test be like.

9.40-10.10am
Recess- Did nothing in particular.

10.10am-11.10am
English- Too easy. ( feeling emotional again)

11.10am-12.10pm
CME- Don't know what is this for. ( Had a lump in my throat, you know what that means? extremely sad.)

12.10pm-1.10pm
Chemistry- If i fail this test, I am a failure.

1.10pm-2.10pm
Biology- Understood it too well.

2.10pm-2.40pm
Bought a packet of drink for her but was turned down.( Extremely Sad).

2.40pm-3.20pm
Biology make-up class- Didn't even care to pay attention.

3.20pm-4.30pm
Dismissed- Sent her home, while being turned back at the last minute. ( Extremely extremely sad).

4.30pm-6.00pm
At home- Thinking of reasons to live on.

6.00pm-8.00pm
Tired- Slept to forget things that shouldn't be in my head at that point of time.

8.00pm-9.00pm
On the computer- talked to my junior and Wei Chong.

9.00pm-9.30pm
Watching Television.

9.30pm-10.00pm
Helped her with her revision. While neglecting my own homework.

10pm- Now.
Still helping her with her revision.
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In summary,
My day was a fiasco.
20% happiness
70% sadness
10% shouldn't say.

Twice the Pride, Double the Fall.

2008-04-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

A review of my day. ->
It's tiring,
It's suicide,
It's cruel,
It's Unreasonable,
It's Forgive and Forget.
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Time is an entity which exist for everyone to fear.
Time will ravage any living thing,
be it animal or plant.
Time can seek trouble even for the most cautious.

Time is a cruel aspect of life
Time will change everything,
including emotions.
Time can make eternity.

Time is something that is distinguishable.
Time will lower the barriers of communications.
Time can make a relationship worse.

Time controls everything in our everyday life. From rise and shine, To fall and sleep, and everything in between. Without Time, there wont be limitations. Without Time, there won't be plannings.

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6.50 am
Reached School. Slummed onto the table and slept sheepishly.

7.18am
Went to the hall and did whatever that must be done.

7.40-8.40am
Ran 2.4km even though my feet is injured.

8.40-9.40am
Very disappointed.

9.40-10.40am
Most interesting or happy thing that happened in the day.

10.40-11.10am
Bought something for her. While refreshing myself.

11.10am-11.40am
Lonely.

11.40am-12.40pm
More lonely.

12.40pm-1.10am
Interesting.

1.10am-1.40am
Overwhelm by sadness.

Now, See ya again! ^^ or :(
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First time blogging - Have to nurse the heart.

2008-03-31T21:38:00.000+08:00

Hi guys.
This is my first time blogging :)
So if this blg have areas to improve , just leave a msg ^^ and remember to tag ^^

The day of Sorrow, this day.

The Ocean will not evaporate in time,
as I won't stop for anything,
besides love.
Everything I do,
noone will notice,
even a slight twitch.

I have waited for eternity in the cage of darkness.
Are they looking for me?
Am I forgotten for eternity?

Truth is what everyone wants,
yet they show naught but lies on their faces.
The very thought that drive them,
is quite naive.
Even though it is bright,
my mind and heart is clouded in darkness.

The only thing that drives me,
is the mere power of Love.
Without which, my life will be empty.
Love means a lot to me,
it's radiant innocence bathe me with the thought of pursuing...

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Text by me.
Experience the meaning,
then you will know the power of Love,
The thing that reforms me.

Right by my side,
is the Angel and the Devil.
Which side should i listen to?

Angel of Love? Devil of Hate?
I am somewhere in between them now,
I fear that i will slip into hate.